Hey everyone! I am finally back and posting :) I have been doing real well lately recovery wise and I couldn't be happier. My life has just been so much better now that I am REALLY into my recovery and ready to be ED-free!
I still have my weekly weigh-ins at Health Services and things just keep going up-hill for me, there was only one week were I actually stayed the same, but every other week I have gained! But this upcoming week will be the first time in a long time I am NOT seeing Karen! Ahhh. She is going to be at a conference the day we meet :( She said I could come in earlier this week to see her but she honestly thinks I am strong enough now that I can take one week off from seeing her. This is a HUGE step and I know I will be fine! It is a great feeling to know I am making huge strides in my recovery :)
I have a whole different view in my recovery than I did last year. I remember when I would hear that I was gaining it scared me and ED would tell me to slow it down and I would stupidly listen and then slowly but surely things began to go down-hill. But not this year! This time around when I hear I gained weight I feel good about myself and it motviated me to continue to do so :)
Yogurt messes per usual.This would be Oikos Chocolate yogurt topped with Dark Chocolate Dreams peanut butter. It was pretty much just like having dessert for breakfast.Snacks.I picked up these two new Supreme Protein bars and decided to give them a try since they had some cool tasting flavors. Cookies 'n Cream.Peanut Butter Pretzel Twist was definitely the better out of the two but I wasn't that big of a fan of them since they kinda too fake tastingEnergy Mix!!Mother's Mystery Mix. Don't ask about the name, that is just what my dining hall calls it here at school.Turkey wraps, pretzels, and an apple.My FIRST EVER Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Iced Coffee. I finally had to try one since pretty much all coffee lovers just rave about it...so I did!Big ole' salad topped with lots of veggies and swordfish with a pumpernickel roll.SnackFace inspired dinner finally! Ever since I started reading Kailey's blog I have always wanted to have a "snackface" meal but ED never allowed me to :( But now I don't listen to him (obviously) and I eat what I want and what I am in the mood for! I guess I just got really anxious and nervous of having something that wasn't so called a traditional "real" meal and just like a bunch of different foods. But I have learned, that if it works then it's fine! Another random dinner, but hey it worked! Sushi, chicken, and a pumpernickel roll. I am by no means saying I now eat random meals all the time, but I have come to realize to eat what I want and craving and not just what ED tells me to! Ice creeeaammmm :)Chocolate frozen yogurt with REESE'S pieces! My new obsession at the coffee shop ;) Now this was good because I am pretty sure this was my first time since I developed my ED that I have had candy!!! Can you believe that?! That was like almost 2 fulls years ago.But of course I am still having my frozen Boosts. I just like the fact I am switching up my evening snacks nowadays!So do you think it is a problem I currently have 5 (yes, 5) jars of peanut butter in my dormroom?! I think not ;) I know what this girl would say!
As Halloween is soon approaching, what is your favorite candy and what are you being for Halloween?!
My favorite candies are anything Reese's, Twix, Kit-Kats, & Peppermint Patties. As for my costumes go, one night I will be an 80's workout girl and the other Risky Business! I can't wait for this weekend. It's gonna be so much fun!