Couldn't be happier

Friday, October 15, 2010

Hey everyone! I am finally back and posting :) I have been doing real well lately recovery wise and I couldn't be happier. My life has just been so much better now that I am REALLY into my recovery and ready to be ED-free!

I still have my weekly weigh-ins at Health Services and things just keep going up-hill for me, there was only one week were I actually stayed the same, but every other week I have gained! But this upcoming week will be the first time in a long time I am NOT seeing Karen! Ahhh. She is going to be at a conference the day we meet :( She said I could come in earlier this week to see her but she honestly thinks I am strong enough now that I can take one week off from seeing her. This is a HUGE step and I know I will be fine! It is a great feeling to know I am making huge strides in my recovery :)

I have a whole different view in my recovery than I did last year. I remember when I would hear that I was gaining it scared me and ED would tell me to slow it down and I would stupidly listen and then slowly but surely things began to go down-hill. But not this year! This time around when I hear I gained weight I feel good about myself and it motviated me to continue to do so :)
Yogurt messes per usual.
This would be Oikos Chocolate yogurt topped with Dark Chocolate Dreams peanut butter. It was pretty much just like having dessert for breakfast.Snacks.I picked up these two new Supreme Protein bars and decided to give them a try since they had some cool tasting flavors. Cookies 'n Cream.Peanut Butter Pretzel Twist was definitely the better out of the two but I wasn't that big of a fan of them since they kinda too fake tastingEnergy Mix!!Mother's Mystery Mix. Don't ask about the name, that is just what my dining hall calls it here at school.Turkey wraps, pretzels, and an apple.My FIRST EVER Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Iced Coffee. I finally had to try one since pretty much all coffee lovers just rave about I did!Big ole' salad topped with lots of veggies and swordfish with a pumpernickel roll.SnackFace inspired dinner finally! Ever since I started reading Kailey's blog I have always wanted to have a "snackface" meal but ED never allowed me to :( But now I don't listen to him (obviously) and I eat what I want and what I am in the mood for! I guess I just got really anxious and nervous of having something that wasn't so called a traditional "real" meal and just like a bunch of different foods. But I have learned, that if it works then it's fine! Another random dinner, but hey it worked! Sushi, chicken, and a pumpernickel roll. I am by no means saying I now eat random meals all the time, but I have come to realize to eat what I want and craving and not just what ED tells me to! Ice creeeaammmm :)Chocolate frozen yogurt with REESE'S pieces! My new obsession at the coffee shop ;) Now this was good because I am pretty sure this was my first time since I developed my ED that I have had candy!!! Can you believe that?! That was like almost 2 fulls years ago.But of course I am still having my frozen Boosts. I just like the fact I am switching up my evening snacks nowadays!So do you think it is a problem I currently have 5 (yes, 5) jars of peanut butter in my dormroom?! I think not ;) I know what this girl would say!

As Halloween is soon approaching, what is your favorite candy and what are you being for Halloween?!
My favorite candies are anything Reese's, Twix, Kit-Kats, & Peppermint Patties. As for my costumes go, one night I will be an 80's workout girl and the other Risky Business! I can't wait for this weekend. It's gonna be so much fun!



katie anne said...

YOU ARE AWESOME!i luv luv luv the eats!
favorite halloween candy...hmmm...snickers, twizzlers, starbursts, twix, and peanut m and ms!yum xoxo

StyLinStaR53 said...

So glad to hear of your happiness! My favorite Halloween candies would have to be: Twix, Twizzlers, Kit Kat's, M&M's, Milky Way, and 3 Muskateers! Yum! <3

Gina said...

You are doing so awesome and are such an inspiration! Keep up the good work! Ben and Jerry's is my fav- Cherry's Garcia is the best!

EmilyH said...


I have had a horrible day, but reading your blog update has just warmed my insides. I don't even know exactly why, but I think it has to do with how joyful you are about food. After doing far too much research about what I should and shouldn't eat, I feel terrified to eat anything. But you seem to just enjoy food because it tastes good and because it is good for you. I wish I could get there, but at least I know that it is possible. Thank you for posting, Jenna! You are wonderful!!


From Here to There. In Purple. said...

SO happy to have read this. youre a beautiful person with a gorgeous soul, dont forget it!

candy: twizzlers or sour patch kids
chocolate: anything dark and smooth and dreamyyy ;)

Katy said...

Your new pic is STUNNING!! It's so great to hear that you're doing well xxx

kteatime said...

Thank you so much for this post jenna! I have been struggling in recovery and you never fail to provide an abundance of inspirationg to me! Reading you posts show me that life without ED is possible and that recovery is worth it. You have been so strong during your recovery and never fail to keep on fighting. Whenever I'm struggling I always remember this strength you have and it allows me to keep going in recovery. Thank you so much and I am so proud of you :)

Alsoo, I love your new profile picture you look radiant, happy, beautiful and healthy!! :)

Alexia @ Dimple Snatcher said...

So glad to hear you're doing well, Jenna!

timeforhappiness said...

Hey there! Love this post, your so keeping so positive and I love your attitude, its contagious :)
Keep up the great work, your making great steps and working so hard, just keep staying strong! As for costumes go, my friend and I are trying to do a partner thing with eachother so we were deciding between sailors and nicole and paris :P
Any way, keep working hard and kicking Eds butt, your doing great girly

Megan D said...

Good for you for eating that ice cream!! My favorite candy is dark chocolate but I also love PB m&ms :)

littlemisspotato said...

I love every single thing about this post. I'm so excited for you and happy recovery really is working out so well! All my best to you girl!

I'm really getting over a lot of protein bar brands. I experience exactly what you mentioned. They taste way too fake!

Zaineb said...

Hey Jenna this is my first time commenting but i have been reading foevs and just wanted to say u r such an inspiration!
I have a question for ya, is the amount ur eating now to gain weight or will u continue eating this much to maintain normal weight too?
i was normal sized, now i lost 10 pounds through working out 3 times a week and eating healthier, but my mom wants me to gain the weight back. do u think the amount you eat now is how much a normal person should eat(with a normal metabolism) or how much a weight gainer should eat?

jaclyn said...

Jenna, I'm so happy you are happy and doing well! Keep it up, take care love! <3

timeforhappiness said...

I'm so glad to hear your doing so well! Keep up the great work with the nutritionist, but from your output on her absence for one meeting it seems like your completley prepared :) Your posts are awesome to read and so inspirational, it really does put a "positive" trigger towards me, which is something to be proud of!
- Kimi

lizzyj1305 said...

Hi beautiful girlie!!
I LOVE reeses! I hope you have a fabulous weekend, full of halloween fun!

squigglefloey said...

Hi girlie,

You have an amazing story and have gotten so far. You should be SO proud of yourself. You are such an inspiration :)

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