Hello beauties! I hope everyone is getting back into the swing of things now that the Holidays and parties are all over. It is the first full week of the New Year :) Let's all make it a good one and stick to our New Year Resolutions and/or Goals!
I would like to thank all of you for your advice, opinions, and thoughts on my last post regarding my situation which occured last week. It was bothering me a lot and I just wanted to know what you all thought. I feel as though I am becoming a lot more open and honest about problems I am dealing with!
Now after reading all of the comments I know it is definitely not "normal" for me to bring my own food to places, I mean I never had to do this before ED! But I just feel more relaxed knowing I have comfort foods with me to eat. I just get really stressed out not knowing exactly what there is going to be.
Now don't get me wrong I do NOT bring my own food everywhere I go! I try to eat normal as much as possible. Like when I go out to eat at restaurants I don't bring my own food.
But on some occassions (like the other night when I went over to my cousin's house) I did bring my own sushi for dinner because Chinese food is one of my fear foods!
Now speaking of FEAR FOODS, my mom thinks all foods are scary for me...which is so NOT TRUE! I mean everyone has their own fear foods and safe foods, even for people with out eating disorders, right?
But I definitely think people with eating disorders have more fear foods because the voice of ED telling them it is bad for them and they shouldn't eat it. Now I will tell you I most certainly do have fear foods and comfort foods as I know many other people with ED do too. Overcoming fear foods of mine is definitely something I need to work on.
I have been having a real hard time with one person in my family...my MOM. She just doesn't get it! Like I said before she thinks I fear every single food imaginable, which is NOT true! I just wish she understood how some foods are just scary for me to eat. She thinks I should be able to sit down anywhere I go and be able to eat whatever food is served to me. But I hate to tell her it is just NOT that easy as she thinks, I wish it were but it is not!
She is constantly making fun of me, the foods I eat, and how I eat it. I feel like nothing I do is ever right, everything is always wrong. It's like one day she is totally supportive but then the next day she is going on a rant of me and my ED. It is just so hard to deal with :(
I don't know how to deal with her, any suggestions or thoughts on what I should say or do?!
Whew! That was a long post, congrats if you read it all. Sorry for venting so much but I feel as though my blog is the perfect place to talk about my life.
But onto a more happier note, The Bachelor is on tonight! Anyone else as excited as I am? Also, the Secret Life and Cake Boss, hollah! What a fab Monday tv night ;) I love the New Year because all the new shows premiere!
I have also been thinking of doing a post soon about a typical day of how I used to eat before my ED came on (like when I was a high school senior 3 sport athlete.) Would that be interesting or not?! Lemme know what you think!