First I had to drive my dad to work at 7am this morning so I could use his car for the day. Luckily he only works .6 miles away from our house (no joke!) so I was back in no time. But your girl Jenna having to wake up earlier than usual on her break is no fun. Im actually being a lil dramatic, it was fine! But then I came back and layed back down for a bit until I go hungry for some breaky which was my typical yogurt mess (obvi). I had Vanilla Brown Cow yogurt, the last of Barbara's Original Puffins, a sliced banana, and a spoonful of Teddie's peanut butter with a glass of milk on the side.
Any suggestions on which cereal I should try next?! It must go well with yogurt messes ;)
Ok so you know how I have been having some problems dealing with my mom lately? Well in case you didn't already know...I am! We haven't been talking to each other for the past few nights and I must admit it is pretty hard to do since we are usually so close to one another. But every since my ED began, our relationship has definitely had its ups and downs. She just does not know how to properly deal with me and my ED and she really struggles and has a hard time. She always turns to yelling, violence, ignoring, or making fun of me. She thinks those are going to solve the problem, but in reality...they ALL just make the situation SO much worse than it already is. I don't mean to bash on my mom and tell you all she is a horrible person because she really isn't. But when it comes to me and my ED she takes it really hard.
So this morning while I was laying in bed she came into my room and acted all nice all of a sudden after not talking to me for days. She told me we were meeting my grandma for lunch this afternoon at 1pm but I just ignored her. Then she wanted to come snuggle with me in bed and she told me when I was younger she would always lay down in my bed with before I fell asleep! True story, she did. But again I just ignored her and gave her the cold shoulder then she left.
Now onto the Battle of the O's! My grandma has been talking about taking me out to lunch before I go back up to school and I was all for it! A nice lil lunch with grandma...I'm all for it ;) She said we could either go to O'Connor's or Olive Garden. She was so sweet because she told me to go on-line to check out the menu for O'Connor's since I have never been there before. She wanted me to feel comfortable eating out with her and I really apprectiated it! We both have been to Olive Garden lots of times so we decided O'Connor's was the winner. O'Connor's is a cute lil Irish restaurant which is very popular. I was excited to try it out and the menu looked great.
I thought it was going to just be me and my grandma but then when I found out my mom was also going, I changed my mind realy fast. Call me stubborn? I think so! But since I am currently mad at her because of the things she has done to me this winter vacation (I will not share them with you) I decided I did not want to go out to lunch with her. Anyways, going out to restaurants with my mom usually NEVER turn out good...EVER! So I think I made the right decision. I was determined not to give into going with my mom just because she was being nice to me this morning. I told my mom I was not going out with her she then got bad at me again and told me ED has caused me to not want to go out to restaurants. It's not that I didn't want to go out because I was scared of eating out, it was because I did not want to go out with my mom because of the things she has done to me, I am still mad at her at the moment.
I felt bad because I was looking forward to going out to lunch with my grandma. But maybe her and I could re-schedule again for another day this week before I go back up to school!
Sorry for ranting about this situation but I just felt like getting it off my chest.
Do you think I made the right decision or not?