This afternoon for lunch I had a tuna sandwich on some of my new bread I bought yesterday...DARK PUMPERNICKEL! I love the smell of it when I go to the store and yesterday I was brave enough to but it and today I tried it ;)
Pepperidge Farm Dark Pumpernickel Bread
I also had an appointment with my nutricionist. My mom came with me and everything went pretty well. It was my last time seeing her before I leave for school this Sunday so we were there for quit a long time. My mom is really nervous for me to go back to college because she doesn't know if she is making the right decision! She doesn't know if I should go back to my college or go to a school closer to home and maybe commute! Then when she gets nervous I also get nervous, I keep second guessing myself whether or not I am making the right decision going back to college and live away from home. I know it will be very difficult for me but I am up for the challenge. The last thing I wont to happen is for me to RELAPSE again at college! I really really really DO NOT want that to happen.
So now I don't know what to do!! School starts next Monday and I am still nervous and thinking about whether or not I am making the right decision that will be best for my HEALTH and somewhere I like rather than going to a college just to please others!
Then when I came home and my dad starting telling me I should go to a college where I am going to be happy at. He keeps telling me not to go to a school that i don't like and not to go to a school just to please him and my mom. I keep getting this feeling from him that he doesn't want me to return to my college again where I started having an ED. I think he beleives it will happen again if I return there. He thinks I need to take "baby steps" and just start taking a few classes around home and see how that goes and then maybe think about moving away to college.
THIS IS ALL STRESSING ME OUT AND I DON'T KNOW IF I AM MAKING THE RIGHT DECISION! PART OF ME WANTS TO GO BACK TO COLLEGE BUT THE OTHER PART OF ME WANTS TO STILL BE AT HOME AND GO TO COLLEGE CLOSER TO HOME!
Snack was an Iced Oatmeal Raisin Luna Bar and a G2. A lil purple snack ;) This was my first time trying this flavor Luna Bar and it was really good! I know i really should not be having this bar as a snack because it does not have enough calories in it but i really want to try new bars...but i need to get back on track! i can't afford to decrease on calories!
The Iced Oatmeal Raisin was decent. It tasted like a chewy oatmeal raisin cookie with icing on the bottom. The bar was made with oats and cinnamon and had very few little pieces of raisin scattered through the bar. I didn't find this bar very tasty but overall it was okay. I would have this bar again but I am also willing to try all the other flavors as well.
Whoahh! Sorry for such the long post. If you actually read all of it then major props to ya ;)