Change is Good!!

Now I know these three little words can sound so scary to some people (LIKE ME), and trust me they are. Personally for me I hate change, I can not stand it. I really hate when something or someone changes, I become really upset and frustrated and I just want things to go back to what they were like before. I know it might sound weird but it is true.

But now I have realized that CHANGE IS GOOD and sometimes you can not control it and you just have to accept the change and move on with it.

So as I have been recovering from my eating disorder one of my goals has been to accept changes happening around me and adapt well to them.

Now, usually I have been having the same boring foods over, over, and over again and I AM SICK OF IT. ED will only let me eat the same foods each day but I am getting so bored :( I want to try new foods because I know it really is not good to eat the same foods each day, your body needs a varitey. And besides eating the same foods every day gets a little boring! So trying new foods will bring some excitment into my life.

I have learned to ignore ED and all of his ridiculous ideas, and I am listening to myself. I have been trying hard to incoprporate different foods in my meals and snacks. At first I am real hesitant and ED is telling me to go back and eat what I usually eat, but then I tell myself I can do this, and I eat it and then afterwards I feel accomplished and proud that I tried something new for a change!

"If nothing ever changed, there would be no butterflies."

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My morning eats were:

glass of milk, english muffin w/ 1 tbsp Skippy pb, and a Chobani yogurt w/ a smashed nana

This morning I worked more on my blog (of coursee). I recently did a post about me and my two younger sisters, Krista and Alexa :) Check it. I also had a Vanilla Boost (gotta go to Target and restock) with a Nature Valley Fruit & Nut Bar. I feel ever since I started this blog I have been on it non stop! I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing?! hah. But like always, when you first get something new you become so attached to it but then after awhile you totally forget about it. I don't think this is going to happen in this situation because I totally love blogging!

For lunch today I had some milk, a turkey sammie, pretzels, and a PEACH!

So speaking of change, I usually always have an apple with my lunch. But today since we did not have any more I had to substitute and have another type of fruit. So I had a peach! I kind of forgot what peaches taste like so I was a little hesistant about trying it. But my first bite was divine! The peach was oh so sweet and soft and I loved every bite of it! Can't wait to have some yummy peaches soon :) And ya see...nothing happened to me, I am still here writing on my blog. Change is not gonna kill ya, I promise ya!

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This afternoon as I was hungry I headed downstairs to the kitchen to grab me a snack. I was planning on having a Cranberry Apple Cherry Clif Bar until I went into the cabinet and discovered it was gone. I know I defs did not eat it (at least I don't think I did) so I am guessing one of my family members must have gotten their lil hands on it. They are always curious as to what I buy at the grocery store because I buy such cool stuff ;) And so they probably wanted to try it out themselves! I will just have to hunt them down and see who ate it on mee.

Toasted Nuts & Cranberry Luna Bar

This bar was filled with little pieces of cranberry but not a lot of nuts. This flavor was not all that exciting but I would definitely try this bar again as well as other Luna flavors because it is a perfect snack sized bar that filled me up.

Since I am just soo sick of power bars (because I usually have one nearly everyday) I settled for a Toasted Nuts & Cranberry Luna Bar with a G2. Now I know I should have probably had the power bar because it has more cals which I need but they are getting old. So now I have to make sure at dinner tonight I make up for those extra calories.

Okay so ever since I have been recovering from my eating disorder I have kind of developed my own cabinet in the kitchen. No Lie. Well ya see I have all of my Boost drinks stocked up there, my bars, and all of my other foods. I like to keep them in a separate cabinet rather than the family snack cabinet so they don't eat it on me. Because believe me anything in that cabinet is "fair game" as my dad would say ;o)