Well hello there! Hope you all have been doing fabulous :) This past weekend I was in NJ for my lil sis' lax tourney which was fun!
Monday I met with my therapist and yesterday with my nutritionist, which both went well. One interesting topic my therapist and I talked about was how to not let ED make me worry so much about what is going to happen in the future. I need to just let it happen even though I always like to know what is going to happen. But what I have learned is that fearing the unknown and not knowing what exactly is going to happen is okay and sometimes surprises can be okay and good. I just need to stop worrying and go with the flow and for the most part everything will fall into place and be okay.
I was also glad to meet with my nutritionist to go over my meal plan to make sure it is working. Over the past few weeks she said I have been gaining at a steady weight and to just keep doing what I have been doing since then. We also made a few more tweaks in it as well.
Eats lately have been...
yogurt messes of course! They are the perfect summer breakfast.Chocolate Chip Brownie Larabar tasted just like a very chocolately brownie. It was very yummy! OMG I just finished this book Little Bee which I started last Wednesday and was so good I could not put it down! It is a must read in my book ;)Tropical Fruit LarabarKashi Chocolate Caramel Crunchy Bar. Very good! I loved the mix of chocolate and caramel together and plus it had pieces of popcorn in it!
Last Saturday I saw my first ever PITA PIT and I just knew I had to try it! Pita Pit is such a cool sub shop and I am so glad I finally got to try it after I have seen so many bloggers rave about it! I got the grilled turkey with american cheese, lettuce and tomato all wrapped up in a pita! I guess my camera liked it that much that it ate it.
I have also been obsessed with Annie's Bunny Grahams Honey! They are so soft and yummy :)
Lunches lately have been pretty typical of me...turkey sandwiches.Again I gotta tell ya babysitting is a tough job layin' out by the pool ;)White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Clif Bar outside in the sun :)
I have been trying a lot of Trader Joe's products lately!
This is the White Chicken Sesame Noodle Bowl that my mom raves about all the time hence the reason why she bought 8 of them last trip to TJ's since they rarely have them! So when they are at the store she stocks up on 'em.This was my first time trying this TJ frozen meal and it was great! It had noodles with white chicken, carrots, and peas topped with a sesame ginger sauce. The resaon why I have never had this meal before was because of ED! He tells me to avoid all types of sauces at all costs because I don't know what they are made from and how much calories in it etc. Well ya know what ED?! I really don't care! I was going to have this meal and enjoy every bite of it and that was exactly what I did. I had this meal for dinner one night and all I needed was add a dinner roll and it fit perfectly into my meal plan.
More new products from Trader Joe's...
Brown Rice California Rolls and a Greek Salad. This was my first time trying sushi that wasn't a veggie roll and I must say I loved the California rolls which had carrots, avocado, & crab meat rolled in brown rice. And plus I haven't had avocado before and I love it now as well. This is defs my new favorite sushi roll :)This past weekend at my sister's lacrosse tourney we all went out to dinner, all the players and their families. ED definitely stirred up a bit of stress for me when I found out we were going to an Italian restaurant and were given only 4 chooses from...Chicken parm, Veal parm, Stuffed Flounder, or Chicken Francese. ED told me to order something else that was "safe" from the menu but I didn't want to be THAT girl ordering something "special" from the menu that nobody else could order. I am no more special or more important than anyone else there and I decided I was going to order one of those 4 chooses for dinner and eat it because I also didn't want to be THAT girl at the table not eating!
I started off with a House Salad with Italian dressing. Yes you heard me right, the dressing was already poured on the salad so I just had to eat it with the dressing already on it and not knowing how much was poured on or how many calories were in it etc. But who cares, because guess what?! I ate it!
I ordered the Chicken Francese which I had never had before and had no idea what it was going to look like, what is was served with, or even if I was going to like it! Well I kinda knew I would probs like it because it was just chicken, but I didn't know what type of sauce was going to be on it.The menu described it as a Boneless breast of chicken, egg, white wine & lemon served with greens beans and spaghetti with marinara sauce. Even though ED told me not to eat the sauce because it was unknown I still did. I was proud of myself for eating this dinner!
Now I don't wanna tell you that everything is going great in my recovery because that would be a lie. This past weekend at my sister's tournament I kinda struggled a bit. To tell you the truth on Saturday I did not follow my meal plan quite so well although ED was quite happy, deep down inside I was not. That is why I tried to get back on track on Sunday. I think it is real hard for me when I am not at home to recovery. I seem to do well at home because there are less distractions to interfere with my recovery. Although I do know that I need to be able to recover under any circumstances.
One thing I have been having a real hard time with is comparing myself to other girls and how they look vs. how I look. ED always tells me that I should look like her because she is skinnier than me but in reality I know she is NOT as skinny as I am but ED convinces me that she is and that I don't need to gain any more weight. When this happens I always go to my sisters and ask them if that girl is skinnier than me and they will say "Jenna, are you serious? NO!" When I am struggling with ED thoughts I always go to my sisters because they give me the reassurance I need. My girl Shelley wrote a post on Why Comparing is a Waste of Time and if you haven't read it yet I suggest you do and right about now ;)