Happy Happy Humpday! I woke up to snow this morning but now it is raining and it is nasty outside :/ I hope it is a bit nicer wherever you are!
So if you don't know Wednesdays are my days when I have my weekly appointments with Karen at Health Services where she weighs me and does my blood pressure and pulse. Last night I was SUPER nervous for my appointment this afternoon. You could definitely call me Nervous Nelly ;) To calm my nerves down a bit I texted all of these fabulous chicas...Meg, Shelley, and Katie! Thank you for all of your support and kind words!
After a good nights sleep last night I woke up and had a yogurt mess with Vanilla Brown Cow yogurt, Kashi Go Lean, a sliced banana, and Crazy Richard's creamy peanut butter on top with milk on the side.I had some Crazy Richard's this morning because I felt like I was neglecting him ;) Gotta keep switching up the nut butters each day!
Much better all mixed up!
While having my snack I also read some cards I got from my girl CARLY! She is amazing and I love and miss her so much at school!Lunch was the return of the veggie burger on whole wheat bread with pretzels, an apple, and milk. Then I was off to my appointment wicked nervous and anxious! I just keep fearing the worst, like if my weight, blood pressure, pulse went down or something! I like couldn't think positively :/ I mean I really shouldn't have been all that nervous if I have been following my meal plan like I have been doing! But I guess it is always good to be a lil nervous. But in the end my appointment went very well and she told me I am gaining at a nice rate! I was so relieved I did well this week. Now I just have to keep doing this well every week from here on out :)
I obvs had to call la madre to let her know how it went and she was very proud of me. But she was out prom dress shopping with my younger sis so she is gonna call me back later tonight! I can't believe my lil sis is already going to the Junior Prom this year, that is cray cray! I wish I was home dress shopping with her, it is such a fun time :) But oh wait, I will be home tomorrow because my teacher cancelled class for this Friday! Hollah.
A new bar I tried the other day was Chocolate Raspberry Luna Bar!
Very good flavor! This bar was a great combination of dark chocolate and raspberries. If ya like that combo of chocolate with fruit then this bar is for you. And with a little drizzle of icing on top was delicious! One lil thing that has been bothering me lately are all of these ANON comments I still keep getting on my posts. I understand your concern for me and I really appreciate it. But, it has come to a point when I am just really annoyed with them :/ I know it may sound rude or harsh but it is true.
I got quite a bit of anon comments yesterday telling me lavash bread is low calories, asking why I don't post my dinners (and if it is still chicken, bread, and veggies). Now these comments don't really bother me all that much.
But there was one comment that did irke be a bit and here it is...
Forgive me for being blunt. You are recovering from an eating disorder and you are eating a "yogurt mess" for breakfast? Every morning? Not only is that repetitive, but not nearly enough calories. basically it's just a bunch of junk thrown in a bowl and stirred up.
Lavash bread is extremely low in calories, and for milk, you should be drinking 2% or above, not 1% low fat. You should be trying t gain weight, not maintain or lose.
I seriously hope you are still getting some sort of hlp for this eating disorder, because it's obvious you still have it full on. You are basically eating all "diet" food here.
That "yogurt mess" or whatever it's called, is not appealing looking, nor would it have enough calories to fuel you through a morning.
You are extremely thin and need to eat enough calories to gain.
Please get some help.
So basically this person told me I really have no idea what I am doing to recovery! Anon says a yogurt mess is not nearly enough calories to gain on and is just a bunch of junk thrown together, eating a yogurt mess everyday is not normal, a yogurt mess does not look appealing, a yogurt mess could not possibly fuel me through the day, Iavash bread is low in calories and I should not eat it, I shouldn't drink 1% milk only 2%, and I am eating ALL diet foods. Oh yes and this person says I am extremely thin and I don't eat enough calories to gain or even maintain and I need to get some help! First of all I don't even know how she knows I am thin because I never post pictures of myself on my blog?!
So basically this anon really seems to know (or think she knows) a lot about me! But my point is, I just want to show you that is IS POSSIBLE to gain weight on what I have been doing and what I have been eating. I want to show you that recovery is different from every single person and not everything works the same for each person. This just really bothers me when people tell me I need to eat more and get serious help even though I am gaining on my meal plan (created just for me) and I do have an out-patient team. People think they know WAY more than they really do!
The rest of my day consists of Service Learning 4-6pm, dinner date with one of my girls, meeting, shower, and studying! And of course there will be some watching t.v. in there to keep me distracted. Well, I actually work better when the t.v. is on believe it or not.
Have a great rest of your Humpday!