So like I have probably said before on my blog but if you haven't heard me talk about it I will now. In high school I was a 3 sport varsity athlete in soccer, basketball, and lacrosse. Although my favorite out of the 3 sports was by far LACROSSE ;) I started playing when I was in seventh grade and I absolutely loved it ever since. I also played club lacrosse all through out high school and then go recruited to play Division II college lacrosse. Lacrosse is such a cool fun sport that is different from others and is new and up incoming!
My family is very involved in sports. Sports will and always be a big part in my life. I just find that playing or watching sports is fun! My dad is a super sports fanatic, while my mom is the director of girls lacrosse in my town and my two younger sisters play field hockey, basketball, and lacrosse. We are a very busy family and always on the go, either at practices, games, or tournaments.
But with all of that said this past week got me really thinking a lot about my past and what ED has robbed me of and most of all how much I really do miss lacrosse :( I will be completely honest with you, when I was real deep in my ED I could care less about pretty much anything and didn't care that I completely gave up and lost my athletic scholarship to play DII lacrosse.
This summer has been pretty tough for me but definitely motivational in a way. Since it is the summertime, my younger sister has had many lacrosse tournaments which I have gone to watch her play! Going to her tournaments has brought back sooo many memories of being playing the sport I loved and this was quite emotional for me. I would just remember all of the fun times I had together with my friends and teammates and just the overall feeling I got when I played. Just seing my sister and all of these other girls playing lacrosse was hard for me to watch knowing that I WAS once before one of them playing lacrosse and it kills me now to think about it.
Last week my sister went to a lacrosse camp at a local college nearby where the college girls on the Division I lacrosse team were the counselors. When I went to watch my sister at camp I noticed all of the college girls there at the camp who were just so healthy and happy looking and made me want to be just like them again. I mean I once WAS one of them before so I know I can be like that again. A healthy and happy athletic college lacrosse girl :) I noticed that NONE of the girls were stick skinny but they all had healthy weight on them and were in great shape, fit and toned. It was a HUGE eye-opener for me and I cam to realize that you are not considered "fat" when you play sports (that is just ED telling me so)...you are considered HEALTHY and that is what I want to be!!
I realized ED has stolen one thing I really loved playing and had a true passion for and now I am going to get it BACK! I know this is ONE HUGE goal I am setting for myself but it is definitely something I want back into my life that I have missed so much. I am up for this challenge and I am so ready to keep moving forward and in the right direction in recovery which is just one more step closer to playing lax on the field once again!