Jenna's Journey

THE BIG MOVE

2011-01-12T10:09:00.003-05:00

Hey everyone! If you can't already tell by my post title I have made a BIG MOVE! I finally made the decision to switch my blog over from blogger to wordpress!

Here is my new link so please please please make sure you add it to your blogroll and follow me...

http://jennasjourneythroughlife.wordpress.com/

While at school...

2010-12-26T17:58:00.010-05:00

HELLO everyone! I first want to say I hope you all had a wonderful holiday! I feel like I haven't blogged in oh so long, well that's because...I haven't! The last week of school I was very very busy, all I basically did was eat, sleep, study, with occassional trips to the gym. I am happy to say I am home and done with finals and enjoying break with my family :)

I have had these pictures for quite some time so I decided to do a quick post of what I was up to during finals week.

Yogurt messes were a must obvi.Hummus per usual with veggies and pretzels.My fav Luna Bar by far.More snacks I munched on while studying...Salmon topped over veggies for dinner out to eat.

And for my roomie's 21st birthday we went out to a hibachi grill!I started out with Miso soup.followed by a salad with ginger dressing.and for my meal I got teriyaki shrimp over veggies with a side of sticky white rice. Lots and lots of stydyinggg. But the one thing that kept me sane during finals was my evening snack of fro yo with toppings ;)

Well folks that was a wicked (yes, I say wicked) quick post from while I was at school and I will be soon doing a recap of my Christmas. Can't wait to share with you what I got...but I will give you a hint of one thing I got...starts with a C, ends with an A, is 6 letters long, and lots of bloggers use them ;)

My Thanksgiving Break

2010-11-27T13:16:00.027-05:00

Why hello my bloggie readers! I sure hope all of you had a wonderful Thanksgiving Day last week and you truly enjoyed your day with family, friends, and loved ones along with some amazing food...because I sure know I did :) My goal for this years holiday was to make sure it was NOT like last year when I was deep in my ED and did not get to fully enjoy the holiday and it was just awful. But I must say this years Thanksgiving was SOOO much better than last years and I really did enjoy it to the fullest! More to come later on in this post ;)

But onto some other delicious eats while over break at home!Yes this is a CINNAMON CRUNCH BAGEL from Panera Bread! These are by far my favorite bagels and I loved to eat them before my eating disorder. This was the first time in a longgg time that I ventured out to eat not just only a plain old bagel...but a Panera Cinnamon Crunch Bagel! This was a huge step because while recovering in my ED I have always feared bagels. I am pretty sure this was my last fear food that I have yet to conquered, but now I can finally say I have!Oh and then the next morning what did I have...just another bagel! You can see I was on a bagel kick ;) This was a Thomas' whole wheat bagel with peanut butter and homemade jam, a banana, and a glass of milk. And just to clarify this was a real sized bagel and not a mini! After breakfast this morning which consisted of eggs with hot sauce, english muffin, banana, and milk I was craving a Dunkin Donuts glazed munchkin that was sitting in the box on my counter...so I had one! I showed my dad and he was like what come out of you?! Hah. I simply just wanted one and so I had one! It was that easy and just as delicious as I remembered them to be!Trader Joe's Triple Berry O's that I picked up while at home. I love the dried fruit in the cereal, and it adds a nice sweet touch!Love this bar because it is a Sweet & Salty Trail Mix Bar! Perfect combo.Dollop of peanut butter in my yogurt...why not?!Peanut butter Granola Thins crumbled in my yogurt...hey why not?! This was my first time trying these and they were very good and also want to try the Chocolate thins as well.Went on a nice coffee date with my bff and had a Vanilla Bean iced coffee at my new favorite coffee place, LalaJava!

But now onto Thanksgiving!My plate included everything on the table! I had turkey with corn bread, stuffing, mashed potatoes, creanberry sauce, and maple glazed sweet potatoes. I went back for seconds on the stuffing because it was by far the best dish of the meal, so good!My aunt also had Maple Pumpkin Butter for us to try which was very good and I put some on my bread.Dessert #1 at my aunt's house was all about fruit and chocolate for me! There was a huge Edible Arrangements display which I dove right into. I started out with some some regular fruit along with 2 chocolate dipped Granny smith apples covered with cinnamon! They were that good that I even went back for a third! Hey it was Thanksgiving and I wanted another one so I did!Dessert #2 at my other aunt's house was blueberry pie topped with Vanilla Bean ice cream. Yumm! This is so like the OLD JENNA without an ED and I absolutely love it!Subway for lunch. I ventured out and tried Miss. Vickie's JALEPENO chips which were very hot, but very good!My aunt's homemade stuffed shells, a spinach salad, and toasty bread. I made my own spinach salad topped with dried cranberries, toasted almonds, mushrooms, tomatoes, and dressing. Oh how I love babysitting...getting paid while being able to eat delicious food and hang out with my cousins ;)Tropical Chicken Salad with warm flatbread.Frozen yogurt was consumed while I was home!As well as some real ice cream! So that was my Thanksgiving Break! It was very enjoyable and was very sad I had to come back to school :( But to look on the bright side I will already be home again for Christmas break in less than 3 weeks! Ehhh, can't wait :)

Hope you are all having a great start to the week after the holiday!

2 day week :)

2010-11-21T18:38:00.016-05:00

Hey hey hey! Everyone ready for yet another start of the week? But the good thing is it is a short week because THANKSGIVING is Thursday! I am finally going home tomorrow for the first time since Columbus Day weekend in October! I can't wait :) I only have to get through 2 more classes tomorrow morning and then my mom will be picking me up at school!

I still have been doing very well recovery wise since the last time I posted (even thought that was like only last week) Hah. But anyways last week my weekly appointment went well and I am not seeing Karen this upcoming Wednesday because I will be on break. She said I was doing well that she did not want to see me since she just saw me last Wednesday and is giving me this week off and we will just resume when I come back from break! I truly think this is a real sign of improvement :)

So now we shall move onto my eats as of lately...
Yog mess with Blueberry Brown Cow greek yogurt, Cheerios, strawberries, soy nut butter, and a glass of milk.

Have you ever tried soy nutter butter before?! I haven't until this year at my dining hall! I am not quite sure what brand it is but I will check next time to let you all now. But I really like it because it is veryyy creamy ;)
My usual yogurt mess with Vanilla Brown cow greek yogurt, cherrios, banana, and Jif All Natural peanut butter and a glass of milk.Luna Bars have been my go to morning snacks as of lately if you haven't already noticed. What can I say, there are just so many good flavors to choose from!Get ready for this! Guess what I had for lunch yesterday?!a TUNA MELT!!! I used to be soo afraid of ordering tuna out at restaurants because I was scared off all of the mayonnaise they used or even when I would make it at home I would never put enough mayo on it and then it would just taste like blah :( But that was when I was deep in my ED and guess what? I am no longer into my ED and I eat what I want now and could careless what ED has to say. Well actually to tell you the truth, I rarely even hear his VOICE anymore!!! So since I haven't had a good tuna sandwich in awhile and I was getting quite sick of turkey sandwiches, I decided to switch it up and have a tuna melt because it was what I wanted and let me tell you I am glad I did because it was tastyyy!Random dinner but it did the trick! I was craving sushi one night and my dining hall hasn't had it in soo long but once they did I immediately jumped all over it. I had Vegetable Sushi rolls, a cool "S" looking wheat roll, and a piece of chicken with hot sauce.Hummus with pretzels, carrot sticks, and cucumbers for dippage! Seriously, I am officially addicted.

Another addiction of mine...frozen yogurt!Vanilla with Reese's pieces :) Such a good evening bed time snack!

Now onto the topic of THANKSGIVING! I know this time of the year can be very stressful for a lot of people especially of those with ED. The holidays are supposed to be a time of joy and celebration while being around with family and friends sharing good laughs and sitting down for a nice meal. But for those with ED, holidays can cause fear, anxiety, and stress. Now I can totally relate to this because last Thanksgiving and Christmas I was still in my ED and it was horrible. I would get so caught up before hand and think about what I was going to eat and should I eat less before at breakfast since I knew there was going to be a lot of food later in the day to compensate and it was just so annoying and a waste of time. My ED was so strong and was the one in control and not me. I remember last Thanksgiving making my own vegetable dish just to assure myself there would be a "healthy" and "safe" food available for me to eat. But when I look back now I think it was just absurd. This year I have decided to take on a totally different approach on the holidays. I will not be limiting my intake before hand, or thinking about what I am going to eat, or making my own "special" dishes, or anything ED related. I am going to eat how I used to eat without and before my ED and that is that and I can assure you this Thanksgiving I will be indulging in some yummy desserts and that I WILL be eating pie and ice cream for dessert ;) I'm just sayin.

Can't wait to share my Thanksgiving recap in my next post :) Off to dinner with the girls!

Have a great Thanksgiving!!!

Stronger and Stronger

2010-11-15T19:18:00.007-05:00

Well hello friends! How have you all been doing since the last time I posted?! I hope wonderful :) Can you believe it is already the middle of Novemeber and Thanksgiving is a week from Thursday? Crazyyy!

Since I all now you are all just dying to know how I am doing, I will tell you and the answer is FANTASTIC! I know I say this all the time but I honestly can't say it enough, I have just been living and loving my life without ED. There is so much more to life than ED, and each day I am still getting stronger and stronger and I love it!

But anyways on to the eats! I have been switchin' it up a bit because (honestly I thought I would never say this) but I am kind of getting sick of yogurt messes. I mean when I was deep into my ED I would just always have them and I would say I loved having them everyday and didn't mind, but now I am just like NO! I am sick of them sometimes and want to eat something different and what I want!
Wheat english muffin with pb, fruit, vanilla yogurt, and milk. Loved mixing the different flavors of fruit with my yogurt :)Wheat english muffin, pb, banana, yogurt, and milk.But of course I have still been having my yogurt messes ;)Hummus with pretzels, carrots, and broccoli for dippage purposes with...Chocolate Soy Milk. So good!

Pasta e fagioli soup, salad, and a cool lookin' 6-Grain roll.

Soup, salad, and breadsticks...Olive Garden anyone?! Speaking of Olive Garden I actually went there for dinner with my roomie and her family on Saturday which was a big step because the last time I went their a little over a year ago for my mom's birthday it was a nightmare and since it used to be (and still is) my favorite restaurant I wanted to make this one a good experience and I did!
The other night I tried my dining halls so called "Marathon Roll" with nuts, carrots, sunflower seeds, and pumpkin seeds. Pretty cool, huh? Well it was pretty tasty too! Something different too that I haven't ever heard of or seen before!

You are probably wondering what this big machine is in my dining hall. Well it is our new MooBella Ice Cream Machine we got this semester! I love my dining hall.
You can make your own ice cream in just 40 seconds with 96 different varieties and it is 100% all-natural dairy. I know your jealous ;) It's okay!So I decided to finally give it a try and make my own...White Chocolate Raspberry! Well it kind of melted and then I frooze it so it looks weird in the cup, hah. But anyways that's besides the point, it was overall pretty good except for the fact that I only got ONE sinle chocolate chip! Pshh. But I am defs gonna try the other flavors as well, I heard the Cake Batter is good ;)

But nothing compares to all of my frozen yogurt I have. I am now obsessed with "froyo" ever since my roomie has it all the time and our coffee shop has yummy froyo with all different toppings as well.

My all time favorite...chocolate frozen yogurt with Reese's pieces. There is this one particular girl who works at the coffee shop that my roomie and I love because she makes the best froyo because she puts a decent amount of candies on both the bottom and top! So we always get excited when she is working...yeah we are weird and we know it but ho cares!For one of my nursing classes we are having a Promotion Fair and I decided to do mine on, well of course...Eating Disorders since I know a lot about it and probably could have done this project with my eyes closed! Anyways, I just whipped up this baby the other night and I think it came out pretty darn good if I do say so myself ;) I did all sorts of stuff like how to love your body, stay active, get incolved, have a healthy relationship with food etc. and I also got Dove Chocolate Promises with the affirmations in the wrappers to give away to the audience!

So I will leave you now with yet another mirror pic of me. Hah.

Gotta go get some froyo and watch Cake Boss! Night everyone :)

Oh and p.s. I forgot to tell you that I am now at a weight were my nurse practitioner is finally allowing me to start incorporating exercise back into my dialy routine!! But we have both agreed for me to wait until Thanksgiving break for me to meet with my personal trainor at home to help me get back into exercising! I am so excited and I can't wait to get started and I will be sure to post about it next time!

What a week it has been

2010-11-04T16:22:00.015-04:00

What a week it has been! This past weekend was HALLOWEEKEND and it was one of the best weekends I have had in awhile!! Friday night my sister came up to visit me as well as my roomie's lil sis and we had a great night :) I was glad my sister finally was able to visit me since she has a crazy schedule. I was an 80's workout girl Friday night.Then on Saturday I was "risky business" and I went to visit my best friend at her school for the night and had a blast! I am defs going to visit her soon ;) Now this was the friend I mentioned before and we definitely had a hard time during my ED but now I must say things are right where I want them just like they were before!And they have a Dunkin's on campus...how cool Nothin' sounded better the next morning than a blueberry iced coffee with an egg & cheese on an english muffin with a banana. I was happy because I didn't bring any food with me and just went with the flow and ate what was available to me. I was missin' my AM milk, but I made sure to just have it later on at dinner, no biggie!Snackies.I have come to the conclusion I am addicted to hummus...it's official.Big ole salad topped with lettuce, maccaroni salad, green peppers, 3 bean salad, cucumbers, toasted corn, and wasabi peas with grilled chicken and a dinner roll. Filled my tummy up quite well!Chocolate Frozen Yogurt with Reese's peanut butter cups.

I have been switching up my evening snacks rather than having Boosts every night. I am also trying to wean myself off of the Boosts soon and eat real food rather than having to rely on Boosts. Just tryin' on some of my 'fits now that I don't look emaciated in them and look somewhat decent ;) Sooo as I mentioned in my previous post I said how I did not have my weigh-in last week and I got the week off. Now this was a huge step because I have never gone a week without my weekly weigh-in appointment, and last week was the first! So I had my appointment this past Wednesday and things went fabulous!! My weight increased and I am finally at a weight were I am going to be able to start incorporating exercise back again, just a little at a time! I have not started yet but we are going to see how I do next week and then go from there. I mean I have yet to drop any weight at ALL since being back at school as I have only going up so I don't think next week will be any different!

Have a great weekend and I will keep you updated :)

Well I am off to bed and it is FRIDAY tomorrow and I am just lovin' my new healthy life!! I can honestly say I AM LIVING MY LIFE :)

Couldn't be happier

2010-10-15T20:42:00.023-04:00

Hey everyone! I am finally back and posting :) I have been doing real well lately recovery wise and I couldn't be happier. My life has just been so much better now that I am REALLY into my recovery and ready to be ED-free!

I still have my weekly weigh-ins at Health Services and things just keep going up-hill for me, there was only one week were I actually stayed the same, but every other week I have gained! But this upcoming week will be the first time in a long time I am NOT seeing Karen! Ahhh. She is going to be at a conference the day we meet :( She said I could come in earlier this week to see her but she honestly thinks I am strong enough now that I can take one week off from seeing her. This is a HUGE step and I know I will be fine! It is a great feeling to know I am making huge strides in my recovery :)

I have a whole different view in my recovery than I did last year. I remember when I would hear that I was gaining it scared me and ED would tell me to slow it down and I would stupidly listen and then slowly but surely things began to go down-hill. But not this year! This time around when I hear I gained weight I feel good about myself and it motviated me to continue to do so :)
Yogurt messes per usual.This would be Oikos Chocolate yogurt topped with Dark Chocolate Dreams peanut butter. It was pretty much just like having dessert for breakfast.Snacks.I picked up these two new Supreme Protein bars and decided to give them a try since they had some cool tasting flavors. Cookies 'n Cream.Peanut Butter Pretzel Twist was definitely the better out of the two but I wasn't that big of a fan of them since they kinda too fake tastingEnergy Mix!!Mother's Mystery Mix. Don't ask about the name, that is just what my dining hall calls it here at school.Turkey wraps, pretzels, and an apple.My FIRST EVER Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Iced Coffee. I finally had to try one since pretty much all coffee lovers just rave about it...so I did!Big ole' salad topped with lots of veggies and swordfish with a pumpernickel roll.SnackFace inspired dinner finally! Ever since I started reading Kailey's blog I have always wanted to have a "snackface" meal but ED never allowed me to :( But now I don't listen to him (obviously) and I eat what I want and what I am in the mood for! I guess I just got really anxious and nervous of having something that wasn't so called a traditional "real" meal and just like a bunch of different foods. But I have learned, that if it works then it's fine! Another random dinner, but hey it worked! Sushi, chicken, and a pumpernickel roll. I am by no means saying I now eat random meals all the time, but I have come to realize to eat what I want and craving and not just what ED tells me to! Ice creeeaammmm :)Chocolate frozen yogurt with REESE'S pieces! My new obsession at the coffee shop ;) Now this was good because I am pretty sure this was my first time since I developed my ED that I have had candy!!! Can you believe that?! That was like almost 2 fulls years ago.But of course I am still having my frozen Boosts. I just like the fact I am switching up my evening snacks nowadays!So do you think it is a problem I currently have 5 (yes, 5) jars of peanut butter in my dormroom?! I think not ;) I know what this girl would say!

As Halloween is soon approaching, what is your favorite candy and what are you being for Halloween?!

My favorite candies are anything Reese's, Twix, Kit-Kats, & Peppermint Patties. As for my costumes go, one night I will be an 80's workout girl and the other Risky Business! I can't wait for this weekend. It's gonna be so much fun!

My weekend at home!

2010-10-10T20:00:00.026-04:00

Hello and Happy Tuesday! Well I must start off by saying my Columbus Day weekend at home was wonderful and could not have gone any better! I spent my time with my family and it was definitely an ED-free weekend. As I said in my last post, I was very nervous as to how my transition back home was going to go since last year when I went home for the first time I did not do too well. But let me tell you this past weekend was just the opposite.

I WANTED this past weekend to go well at home and so I made sure it happened and I DID. I am very proud of myself for doing so well. I proved to myself I could do it as well as to my family. My mom came and picked me up from school Friday afternoon and this was the first time she saw me since she dropped me off at school in late August. I mean I talk to her on the phone everyday and my dad and one of my sisters came up to visit me but I hadn't seen my mom and other sister since leaving for school. So it was very nice to finally see her and give her a big hug :) She said I looked great and I was excited to show her myself and prove to her I was really doing well at school this year.

This past weekend I spent time with the fam and went to 2 of my sister's field hockey games, apple picking, and went to my cousin's family party! It was great to see my grammy, aunts, uncles, and all of my cousins. I love when we all get together. I was glad to see everyone sicne I haven't seem them in quite some time. They all commented on how good I looked and for the first time ever in my recovery I was finally HAPPY to hear that! I was actually hoping and looking forward to all the compliments. I wanted to show them I was doing well and I can recover!

Now let's get onto the food I have been eating lately...
Breakfast all weekend was the usual yogurt messes!Morning snackies.I had Subway for lunch on Saturday and I was so disappointed. I mean don't get me wrong I love Subway, but I have to admit I am so spoiled here at school with the dining hall! Nothing can compare to the deli here.Mom's homemade lasagna with bread and butter. I specifically told her that she was making this while I was home and of course she happily agreed to make it for me ;) Oh the things she will do for me!Veggie Pizza at my cousin's birthday party. Pretty boring veggie pizza I must say and definitely not the best I've ever had.BBQ Chopped Chicken Salad. Love me some Panera!Asian Sesame Chicken Salad. Now I haven't had Panera in weeks and then all of a sudden I have it twice in one weekend. Go figure! I went out tonight with my girl Carly for dinner once I got back to school to catch up on our weekends since I did not see her for like FOUR days straight!I was also craving a burrito this weekend...so I got one last night for dinner!Moe's Burrito get in my belly. Demolished it! I look back to just last year when you couldn't even pay me to eat a burrito and now look at me. Now I have no anxiety whatsoever eating it at all. It is so weird how things change for the better in just one year and it can be done!Hazelnut Chicken, Fruit & Mesculin Salad. I went out to lunch with my mom and grammy late this afternoon to an Irish pub before my sister's field hockey game. I also had a warm homemade roll as well.

Now for an evening snack I only had a Boost one night. Can ya believe it? But no need to worry, I did in fact have an evening snack every single night!
One night I had this new frozen yogurt parfait topped with trail mix and it was delicious! It was a nice change from the usual Boosts every night. The two other nights I had real ICE CREAM! None of this low fat, no fat, fat free stuff...I am talking about the real good ice cream! I am so happy I finally had ice cream this past summer to get rid of that dreaded fear of thinking ice cream is evil... now that was just non sense! These lil containers of ice cream are the perfect evening snack and a good change!Of course my mom and I did a lil grocery shopping while at home so I picked up some bars for school...as well as this beauty that I haven't had in wayyy to long! Dark Chocolate Dreams :)The oldest and youngest granddaughters on my mom's side :)

Me and my sister before apple picking wearing matching sweatshirts ;)

I am off to shower and watch the Teen Mom finale with my roomie before snuggling into bed and starting classes tomorrow! But yeah for only a 3 day school week!

Ready to go home!

2010-10-05T19:50:00.012-04:00

Hey hey everyone! So I am currently in my room anxiously awaiting for my mom to come pick me up to go HOME! This will be my first time going home since school started in late August, so I haven't been home in quite some time. I am excited and happy to go home and spend time with my family and relax but I am also nervous as to how I am going to do recover wise. I remember this time last year when I went home for the long weekend for the first time last year. I was doing well all the way up to the point until I went home. I am not quit sure what exactly caused me not to do well at home, but I pretty much think it was the change (as I am terrible with change!) But it is definitely something I have been improving on :) I just hope I will continue to do what I have been doing here up at school while at home for the long weekend. Just take it DAY BY DAY ;)

I want to make it a stress free and ED free weekend with my family. I want to prove to them I really have been doing well while at school. I think being at home will go well. Plus, I already asked my mom to make her homemade lasagna tomorrow night! Now that is saying something ;) As she was super excited and of course agreed to make!

AHHHHH! So I finally got a chance to try these babies :) I got the chocolate and caramel, but have only tried the caramel and it was delicious to say the least. I wish it could last forever. It was seriously like having dessert for breakfast. The one thing I didn't like about it was how small it was :( Boo. Can't wait to try the chocolateeee soon!I have been having copious amount of yogurt messes each morning.Snacks, snacks, and more snacks.Lunches have been the usual turkey & cheese wrap with pretzels and an apple.I know I have said this in my previous post, but the salad bar at my school seriously ROCKS!I had this salad beast last night and it was awesome. I filled it with romaine lettuce, carrots, cucumbers, baby tomatoes, thai pasta salad, chickpeas, sunflower seeds, craisins, almond slices,sesame sticks, and dressing along with a wheat pita!

Mexican Salad! This one was hot and spicy with romaine lettuce, avocado salad, salsa, beans, carrots, peppers, and dressing with a sunflower roll.White Fish topped with peppers and onions, apple squash, and mixed veggies with a roll and milk.Well girls, some BIG things have been happening in my life! And can ya guess what I got the other day?! ;) Welcome back into my life mother nature! It's been too long, way too long!

And of course I have been ending my long days with a frozen Boost, the only way to drink it is cold & slushy!

Well girls, that is all I have for you before my mom gets here! I am hoping to take foodie pics while at home since I am hoping to be eating a mix and different foods than up here at school. So be ready for a foodie filled post next time!

Have a great Colombus Day weekend :)

I'm alive!!

2010-09-25T23:02:00.023-04:00

HELLO! Does anyone still even read this little blog of mine anymore?! I know I have been M.I.A. for quite some time now since being back at school but I have honestly been sooo busy these last four weeks! It has been unreal! But I totally LOVE being busy!

Anyways, being back at school is just amazing and I love every bit about it. I knew the transition from home to school was going to be a change and may possibly be hard but I did not want it to interfere with my health. I wanted to stay on the same upwards path while at school. I must say I have been doing such that! The transition back to school was pretty easy. The only day I really struggled was move-in day because I was just anxious and scared for everything to go smoothly! But nothing like the help of my roomie and friends to calm my nerves down, gotta love 'em!

So I have just been so busy with schoolwork and Nursing (which I absolutely LOVE!!!) that I haven't had time to blog nor did I really feel like blogging either. But now that have things have somewhat calmed down I finally want to blog again...so I am!

I have been meeting with the nurse practitioner here at school weekly for my weight and vitals and so far each week my weight has been increasing and everything is going well, it couldn't be any better!

Eating at school has been going well. Since I mean, my college is 16th ranked in the nation for best dining hall food! It's okay to be jealous ;)

I haven't really been taking many pics of my food just because I don't feel like it or I forget or simply because I just don't want to! But here are some of them...
Strawberry Yoplait yogurt :) It's all they had the first week until they stocked up with greek yogurt! So until then I just ate the yummy flavors of yoplait.Many yogurt messes have been consumed, well pretty much like everyday ;)And some mornings they don't have bananas so I just roll with what they got and have me some sweet 'berries! It's good to switch it up sometimes.Lunches have been mostly wraps/sandwiches with chips/pretzels and some sort of fruit...you get the picture. They have this new toaster oven at the deli, just like at Subway and it is amazeee!

Dinners have been going great! Ya know how last year when I was deep into my ED and all I would get was a protein, chicken, and veggies?! How boring. Well, I am pretty sure I have gotten that like ONCE so far. How did I eat that like every single night?! UGH! Well I really don't want to think about the past, I only want to learn from it and focus on the present!

So anyways, here are some of my dinners lately.
Pacific Rim Noodle Bowl! Noodles with chicken loaded with alll the veggies they offered mixed with some type of soy sauce!Some type of fish (is it bad that I forget?! I wanna say Mahi Mahi), rice, green beans, a roll with butter on the side and a glass of milk.Pasta Primavera! whole wheat rigatonis with sauteed veggies topped with cheese and chicken!

OMG so the salad bar here at the dining hall is simply...AMAZING!The salad bar has so many different items like all sorts of veggies, cheese, pasta salads (some I have never heard of but are soo good), and toppers! When I get a salad for dinner I load it up big time and then put grilled chicken on top with dressing, and salad toppers :) I usually will have some sort of bread on the side with a glass of milk as well. My friends and I went out to sushi twice so far since being back at school, yeah we love it that much and we found a really nice place right near school. Now, I have a new love for sushi since this past summer but whenever I have it I never now what to get and if I am ever getting enough, so frustrating! The first time we went I got a California roll and seaweed salad, which was NOT enough. But then last week we went I decided NOT to order sushi and to try something new! I ordered the Mongolian Chicken, which was sliced white chicken sauteed with red bell peppers, onion, bamboo shoots, and broccoli in a rich hot sauce with a side of white rice.

This dish had the perfect amount of spiciness for me and I loved it. It was huge but I did manage to finish everything besides a few pieces of chicken. I was glad I got this dish because it fill into my meal plan quite well, it was delicious, and I was satisfied after!

So yeah, that is what I have for you on this Tuesday afternoon. I am so happy I finally found some time to post again. I haven't been reading blogs like at all, like I did last year. Before, I felt like I had to read a few blogs everyday to see what's going on in their lives and I got so wrapped up in reading them they were taking up all my time and were coming over my school work :( This school year has been totally different and better since I am busy with nursing, school work, & friends. I have realized I can't just sit behind a computer all day reading about food and other people's lives while they are having fun, I need to embrace it and LIVE MY LIFE! So that is exactly what I have been doing while at school :) I have been going out with friends on the weekends so much more than I did last year! The first weekend back I school I went out Thursday, Friday AND Saturday. Party animal, yeah I know ;) I have learned that college is supposed to be the best time of your life and that is how I want to remeber it as, and so far I have definitely have been succeeding in doing so!

Well I am off to grab some lunch with friends! Hopefully it won't be too long until I post again!

Finally have time

2010-08-30T23:28:00.019-04:00

HELLOOO! I am back :) As you can tell by the post title I finally have some time to BLOG! To tell you the truth these last few weeks of summer I have been extremely busy with nannying pretty much every single day and I really had no time to blog nor did I really feel like blogging...so I didn't. That's how I roll ;)

This post is filled with pics from the last few weeks of summer so here goes nothin'.
The Bee's Knees.New pb I had for quite some time but just opened it!OIAJYogurt Mess in a jar.

Yogurt messes galore...

Scrammbie eggs with HOT SAUCE (love this stuff), banana and an english muff with butter all washed down with a glass a milk. Perfect Sunday morning breakfast!Chocolate Deluxe Pure Protein Bar aka PURE $h!t. Not a fan at all.But this little beaut on the other had was pure for sure ;)...yeah I will stop trying to be cool right about now. Au Bon Pain iced chai latte. TO DIE FOR!Typical turkey sandwich with a peach and pretzels.Panera Bread Meditteranean Sandwich. I thought it was just okay, nothing special.TACO TACO TACO night!Do you really think I could go a post without my all time fav BBQ Chicken Salad?! I mean, let's be real.This bad boy would be a Moe's burrito!!

This was definitely one of my challenge and fear foods and I am proud to tell you one night last week I asked my mom if we could have Moe's for dinner and of course she obviously agreed!

I demolished the whole burrito that was filled with rice, black beans, avocado, cheese, and lettuce. I ate it all with NO regret! Loved every single bite of it.

My last night at home my mom, sisters, and I all went shopping and then had dinner at The Cheesecake Factory. I had the Chinese Chicken Salad and it was huge and so so so good!

And you are probably wondering what I am eating in this pic?...

Well it is just me eating an M & M Friend-z. No biggie ;)

And yes this would be another ice cream I also had one night! I went out with two of my girls from high school to chat before we all left for school and it was my idea to meet up at Friendly's. But there was something strange about this...I was the only one who ordered ice cream!! Yup, ya heard me right! I had Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream and enjoyed every lick while having a nice time talking to my two friends :)

While at the mall the other night I bought myself a new purse. I really felt like I deserved it for all that I did over this summer as I made huge steps in recovery and was busy nannying all the time :)All must stuff ready to go.OUR NEW ROOM! I have the bottom bunk and my desk is in the left that you can't really see.Much better pic of my side.

And last but not least my desk!

Phew, that was a long post and if you read all of it then give yourself a lil pat on the back!

So right now I am currently back at college! I moved in this past Sunday and although I was a little emotional the first day I am doing much better today :)

Well I gotta do some of my homework and run some errands. Peace out!!

Love, Jenna xoxo

Is this really Jenna?!

2010-08-16T18:20:00.022-04:00

Hey hey hey everyone! I can't believe it is already the middle of August and I go back to school in 13 days! I am excited, nervous, and anxious all at the same time!Even though I did the transition into school last fall and did pretty well, I need to make sure to do it again, but this time even better! I am in a really good place in my recovery and am doing well and I really need to continue in the right direction. I have a lot of things to look forward to this school year and I want to make the best of this year :)

I have been a busy girl lately and I just got back from a lil vaca this past weekend with my cousins :) But without further ado I will give ya a foodie picture-y post ;)

First up is COFFEE!

Yes, coffee! I have never ever been a coffee drinker. It just never really seemed appealing to me and I didn't like the taste all that much. Honestly I never got what the BIG DEAL was! A few weeks ago I gave it a try at our hotel on vacation and since then I have been enjoying my cup of coffee in the morning :) I know a lot of bloggers drink coffee and say it is a nice "pick me up" so I decided to give it a try! It's good to try something new, right?! I also love how there are now so many flavors now! I mean come on...French Vanilla! Blueberry! Caramel! How could you go wrong? Oh yeah and I just bought some Mint Chocolate Chip coffee, can't wait to try it :)A girl can never have too much pb on her yogurt mess ;)Banana bread oats!Breaky at the Inn on vacation! Roasted taters, scrammbled eggs, engligh muffin with butter, a banana, and a glass of apple juice. 'Twas a great breakfast enjoyed outside with my cousins!Ok I don't know if it is just me or anyone else has the same reaction as I do to the Cherry Pie larabar?! I honestly think it is wayyy to sweet and it reminds me of eating sour patch kids. Not a fan, not a fan at all!But this Chocolate Peanut Butter Pure Protein Bar? Now that was something I was a fan of! I mean honestly, any bar with the words chocolate and/or peanut butter in them cannot disappoint...and it surely didn't!Again, another bar that lived up to it's name...Peanut Butter & Jelly Dipped Mojo bar.

Next up...Harrison's Roast Beef Sandwich!
Yup! Ya heard me right, I had a roast beef sandwich yesterday for lunch on our way home! Say what?! My uncle went to college nearby this famous roast beef place and he just had to stop! Hah. Now I have been here before pre-ED but when I found out we were going to stop here for some lunch I was quite nervous. I mean I hardly ever eat roast beef, and as you know I love my turkey and chicken! I was kind of hoping along the way we could stop at a Subway or a D'Angelos for me, but that was just ED talking me out of having a roast beef sandwich because it is not a "safe" food of me.

But the more I thought about it, I was not going to make my uncle and aunt make a "special" pit stop for a turkey sandwich for me. I was going to have a roast beef sandwich for lunch and that was that!
Even though I am not the biggest fan of roast beef and don't usually eat it, having it one day for lunch wasn't going to kill me and alas it was a good switch up and definitely a good challenge for myself! It was actually quite tasty cooked well done with melted cheese on a bun.Now here are my typical turkey sandwiches of mine ;)A buffalo chicken wrap that was just blah. I mean if you are going to call it a "buffalo" chicken wrap then at least put some buffalo on the meat to make it a lil zesty and my mouth burn just a bit...please!A very un-flattering (but very tasty) pic of a D'Angelo's Chicken Stir Fry in a pocket filled with grilled chicken, mushrooms, peppers, onions, and melted swiss cheese. Yum.Could I please have a Starbuck's Caramel Macchiato? Oh yesss! A cold drink from Starbie's is a must while spending the afternoon shopping on Newbury Street!

Last week was my momma's birthday and we went to The Texas Road House for dinner. I have never been before even though there is one right up the street from me but my sister has before and said it is a pretty cool place so it was where we went! They give you a bucket of peanuts and you can throw the shells on the ground, which was pretty cool I thought ;)
For my meal I ordered the Shrimp skewers on top of a bed of rice along with a huge sweet potato and mixed veggies. The lighting was really bad but this meal was HUGE and very good!I was re-united with my favorite salad from Panera...BBQ Chopped Chicken salad and a baguette :)A lovely home cooked meal by momma. Gonna miss these back at school :( But luckily my college is rated number 16th in the country for the best college dining hall food!!! Yeahhh.

And then I will leave you a picture of this...
Friendly's BLACK RASPBERRY ICE CREAM! This was a HUGE step for me because I can't remember the last time I had any sort of treat, which is really sad :( Onee of my goals for myself LAST summer was to have just one ice cream and I couldn't even do it, that's how deep I was in my ED.

But one night last week I just beat ED I told my mom I was going out to get myself an ice cream and she just looked at me with a smile without saying a word. I knew it meant a lot to her to hear those words come out of my mouth. So we got in the car and drove to Friendly's were I ordered my long overdue ice cream that I enjoyed with my mom :) It was a special moment in my recovery and I am glad I got to share it with my mom.

Peace out girl scouts!

Livin' my life!

2010-08-08T21:50:00.017-04:00

Hey boos! Hollah atchya ;) I hope you all have been having a great summer so far now that it is near end :( I must say this summer totally flew by but recently I have just been so busy livin' my life! I want to keep moving in the right direction I am on now and continue for the rest of the summer and into the new school year.

I have just been focusing on the present and that is what really keeps me going lately! The more and more I recover it has been getting easier and easier and I have less ED thoughts. I used to constantly think of food and when my next meal was going to be and what was I going to have etc. But now I don't think about food as much and I don't think too much about my next meal, I just take care of it when the time comes around. Because worrying about the future is gonna get me anywhere!

I have also gotten to be very flexible now a days with what and when I eat which is a huge step and I am so proud of for. I used to eat on a very rigid time schedule and I would wait until the exact minute to when I could eat, or should I say to when ED would allow me to eat. I now try to eat every 2 1/2 hours or so but if I am hungry before that then I will just EAT! No biggie! And then before I would always rush to eat if I was late and not following my time schedule, ED would totally get me going and I hated it. But now the timing of when I eat doesn't all that affect me. Sometimes I am not hungry for dinner around 7pm so I will wait longer and then other times if I am out and we eat at 6pm I am fine with that. Time doesn't really bother me anymore. I have learned to just go with the flow and everything really does work out and if it doesn't then you just work around to fix it.

So enough blabbin' I will now show you some of my eats lately ;)

Typical yogurt messes of course ;)Scrambie eggs, banana, english muffin with buttah and milk. It was a perfect Sunday summer breakfast out on the porch!Snacks have been Zone and Balance bars.

The usual turkey & cheese on wheat bread with pretzels and a peach.

Sushi!! I was totally craving it one night so I ran to TJ's to pick up some.

Strawberry Poppyseed & Chicken salad with baguette. Love this summery salad!

CHIPOTLE! Burrito bowl with rice, black beans, chicken, salsa, and cheese! Holy yum.

OMG! This might have been the best veggie pizza I ever had. It was topped with broccoli, tomato, onions, mushrooms, peppers, and ROASTED eggplant (which was soo delish) and cheese but not that much sauce. Could have used a bit more in my opinion. But overall it was yummay!

Asian Salmon Spinach salad from Ruby Tuesdays.

And of course summer cannot be complete without barbeques!! I must tell you I go to at least one just about every single weekend, no lie. My family loves getting together and I love it as well! We have so much fun

So enough with the food pics and like I said before I have just been livin' my life! I have been vacationing with the fam, nannying, hanging out, relaxing, eating new foods, and just loving life. There is just soo much more to life than my ED and I can't wait until further on into my recovery to live my life more!!

Here are just a few pics...

Yeah don't ask! My sister and I thought it was funny.Hanging out with my cutie (aka cousin) on the swings the other day.

Well that is all I got here on this hot Monday evening. I am off to watch some reality tv...Bachelor Pad and Housewives of NJ. You know it ;) Then gotta hit the pillow early because I got a early day of nannying ahead of me tomorrow and it's gonna be a hot one!

Happy August!

2010-08-01T12:01:00.009-04:00

Happy August 1st! I can't believe summer is almost over and it is August already!

Last week I went on vacation with the family to the beach and had a great time. We met up with my cousins and their cousins and their friends and it was just a blast! The weather could not have been any better, it was sunny and hot everyday :) I really did not want to leave and I hate it when vacations end :( Don't you?

But lemme recap for ya some of the eats I had on vaca. But before I do I just wanna show ya what I had for breaky this morning because it was glorious! Just plain glorious!Fage 2% yogurt, Multi Grain Cheerios, topped with a very mushy over riped banana, honey and Justin's crunchy almond butter. It was amazing!

The hotel we stayed at had a complimentary breakfast every morning and I didn't have my usual yogurt mess and I also didn't freak out because of it. I had what was available at the hotel and made myself breakfast.English muffin with real buttah, eggs with HOT SAUCE, and a glass of OJ. First time I tried hot sauce on anything and boy lemme tell ya a lil hot sauce goes a longgg way!

But of course I couldn't go all week without having my yogurt mess all week ;) Fage 2%, Cheerios, banana, and JIF peanut butter which I did not measure out at all since I didn't have a tbsp to measure it out and I did not freak out! I just took a big scoop outta the jar and it felt good that I didn't have to measure! And yes you heard me right with JIF pb with its hydrogenated oils and all. ED kind of freaked out because that was the only pb we had while on vaca (since I forgot to bring my packs to go!) and even though people say to stay away from those oils, but hey that's the only pb we had and I was NOT going to skip out just because of some stupid oils. I mean eating this pb for a few days is definitely not gonna hurt me!Chocolate Pretzel Kashi Crunchy bar that was just ok, nothing to rave about.Typical lunches on the beach were turkey & swiss on spinach wrap with chips and fruit. OMG I love how tasty these spinach wraps are! New bars I tried on vaca were Toffee Chocolate Chip which was tasty.But on the other hand this Oatmeal Raisin Cookie was just okay, the Clif Oatmeal Raisin Walnut bar is by far better!

I honestly think on this vacation I ate really well and challanged myself a lot!
The first night I was feeling brave and ready to try something new so that was what I did! For the first time ever I tried broiled scallops! Lately I have been very willing to try new foods and challenge myself and was proud I did. After much debate on whether I should order them or not, my dad and the waiter both agreed I would most likely like them and I kinda new I would to...and I did! Along with the broiled scallops I had a baked potatoes and veggies.Swordfish topped on a salad along with a baked potato (not pictured). And do you notice the puree on the dish?! Well it was a rosemary/merlot beurre rough and I ate it! I think back to when I was deep in my ED and remembered when I ate everything plain (boring!!) but now I don't and I enjoy food so much more!Broiled Haddock with rice pilaf and cole slaw. This haddock was awesome! Melt in yo mouth kinda good ;)Pam seared, sesame seed encrusted salmon fillet finshed with a Grand Mariner orange glaze served with a baked potato and steamed veggies. This meal was amazing and beautifully presented! I loved it.

As you can tell from my photos I ate a lot of fish while on vacation! But it was all very good. I mean you can't go visit Cape Cod without enjoying all the sefood it has to offer! I feel like I did a very nice job eating and things seem to be getting a lot easier for me as time goes on as I recover :)

I had a great time with my family on vacation but also happy to be back home again! yesterday afternoon my dad and I took a trip to Fenway to scalp some tickets for the game but no such luck so we ended up walking over to Newbury Street to spend the afternoon there. As dinner soon approached we headed back to Fenway to grab some dinner at Boston Beer Works and to catch the end of the game, which was great by the way! They came back from losing and won 5-2!! Go Sox!
For dinner I had the El Paso Chicken Salad! The menu was so big and everything looked great but at last the salads just sounded great and they certainly were! This salad had spicy pasilla-rubbed grilled chicken breast served over tossed mixed greens with avocado, grapes, spiced candied pecans, grilled corn and apples topped with a Roasted & Toasted Cumin dressing. ED definitely chimed in a bit and told me not to eat the salad because the dressing was already mixed up but I just ignored him and told him I was going to eat the salad with the dressing and all and that is what I did!

Well folks thats all I got for ya! See ya soon :)

Realizations

2010-07-23T09:33:00.014-04:00

TGIF everyone! Hope you all had a good week so far and have an ever better weekend. I can't wait because tomorrow I am going on vacation for the week with the famslam :) I can already hear the beach callin' my name ;) I love this vacation because we go away with my cousins and their cousins and their friends and it is just one full week of beach and FUN!!

But before I leave I will leave you with a food filled post along with a realization I had this past week at the end of this post!

BARNEY BUTTER ALMOND BUTTER CRUNCHY! This AB tastes just like peanut butter but even better because it is made from almonds. I just love the taste and texture and that it is a no-stir or oil separation and loveee that it has great chunks of roasted almonds in each bite :)more AB yog messes of course. I just can't get away from this AB!AB & Strawberry Yogurt mess! Fage 2%, Multi Grain Cheerios, banana, strawberry, and AB.I bought the Siggi's Blueberry yogurt awhile back and finally tried it this morning and wow...holy TART! This yogurt was veryyy sweet tasting which I really did not like at the beginning. I guess this is just a change from my plain greek yogurt! I got used to the tartness once I started to eat but overall I thought it was just okay. I liked the Vanilla flavor the best so far and will have to try the other flavors as well.I definitely have been eating lots of bars for snacks lately. I guess you could just call me "the bar girl." Well, actually now that I think about that I take it back ;) I just like bars for snacks because there is such a wide variety of them which come in soo many flavors and are very convenient which I like because I tend to be always out and on the go!Mocha Chip Balance Bar*Not to self* Do not bring bars containing chocolate outside with you an hour prior to eating or else you will get a nice melted bar. I mean I really didn't mind licking the excess chocolate off the inside wrapper (TMI? Oh well!). But I do mind the fact that I kept having to check myself out in the mirror of my iPhone to make sure I didn't have chocolate smeared all over my face in public!Cookie Dough Balance Bar. I am really lovin' these bars lately and If you haven't noticed but I tend to get on little hiatus' with bars. Once I try them I will have them for like a week straight and then go onto a new bar. Hah. But lately I have been trying to switch it up! Cashew Cookie Larabar (just okay!)Carrot Cake Larabar was good!Buffalo turkey & american cheese on wheat bread, Annie's Cheddar Bunnies, and a pear. This past week at the grocery store my mom bought this new buffalo turkey and OMG it is so so good! It has a nice spicy kick to and overall I just love it. I think I have a new love to spicy and hot foods! They just take food to a whole new level.Ham & cheese sandwich, pretzels, and an apple.

Of course like I said above I have been having lots of bars for snack lately...need I say more?!Dinner last night was a cheeesburger with all the fixings and some of my mom's pasta salad!

So like I have probably said before on my blog but if you haven't heard me talk about it I will now. In high school I was a 3 sport varsity athlete in soccer, basketball, and lacrosse. Although my favorite out of the 3 sports was by far LACROSSE ;) I started playing when I was in seventh grade and I absolutely loved it ever since. I also played club lacrosse all through out high school and then go recruited to play Division II college lacrosse. Lacrosse is such a cool fun sport that is different from others and is new and up incoming!

My family is very involved in sports. Sports will and always be a big part in my life. I just find that playing or watching sports is fun! My dad is a super sports fanatic, while my mom is the director of girls lacrosse in my town and my two younger sisters play field hockey, basketball, and lacrosse. We are a very busy family and always on the go, either at practices, games, or tournaments.

But with all of that said this past week got me really thinking a lot about my past and what ED has robbed me of and most of all how much I really do miss lacrosse :( I will be completely honest with you, when I was real deep in my ED I could care less about pretty much anything and didn't care that I completely gave up and lost my athletic scholarship to play DII lacrosse.

This summer has been pretty tough for me but definitely motivational in a way. Since it is the summertime, my younger sister has had many lacrosse tournaments which I have gone to watch her play! Going to her tournaments has brought back sooo many memories of being playing the sport I loved and this was quite emotional for me. I would just remember all of the fun times I had together with my friends and teammates and just the overall feeling I got when I played. Just seing my sister and all of these other girls playing lacrosse was hard for me to watch knowing that I WAS once before one of them playing lacrosse and it kills me now to think about it.

Last week my sister went to a lacrosse camp at a local college nearby where the college girls on the Division I lacrosse team were the counselors. When I went to watch my sister at camp I noticed all of the college girls there at the camp who were just so healthy and happy looking and made me want to be just like them again. I mean I once WAS one of them before so I know I can be like that again. A healthy and happy athletic college lacrosse girl :) I noticed that NONE of the girls were stick skinny but they all had healthy weight on them and were in great shape, fit and toned. It was a HUGE eye-opener for me and I cam to realize that you are not considered "fat" when you play sports (that is just ED telling me so)...you are considered HEALTHY and that is what I want to be!!

I realized ED has stolen one thing I really loved playing and had a true passion for and now I am going to get it BACK! I know this is ONE HUGE goal I am setting for myself but it is definitely something I want back into my life that I have missed so much. I am up for this challenge and I am so ready to keep moving forward and in the right direction in recovery which is just one more step closer to playing lax on the field once again!

Now I am off to get packing to set out on vacation! Have a great weekend :)

What a weekend!

2010-07-18T20:34:00.013-04:00

Hey! Well let me just start off by saying I had a great weekend and I hope you all did too! My time was spent visiting my cousins in CT for the weekend and let me just alsi say I am POOPED! Watching two lil ones under the age of 3 who have lots of energy and are oh so cute take a lot of work!

I am gonna do a lil recap of my eats this past weekend. I was very proud of myself because all I brought was 2 clif bars and 2 Boosts for snacks and that's it. I was going to make myself eat whatever was available and to not bring my special "safe" foods. I knew I was going to be OK because last time I visited them their kitchen was fully stocked and it was this time around as well.

Before I went out to run all of my errands I ate this new to me Alomnd Trail Mix Earnest Bar. This bar was delicious and there was some flavor in it that just took this bar to the next level. Can't wait to try out the other flavors as well!

Before we hit the road I ate some lunch.

Turkey & American Cheese on wheat with a pear and Annie's Cheddar Bunnies (loves!!)Afternoon snack in the car was a White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Clif Bar.

We finally arrived after a few hours in the car and I was so excited to see my cute lilttle cousins. Then it was barbeque time!
For the first time ever I had a turkey dog! There was also chicken and burgers but to tell you the truth I am quite sick of both of those so I decided to go with the turkey dog. I haven't had a hot dog in soo long and I was glad I had one the other night. Even though it wasn't a REAL beef hot dog (it was a turkey hot dog) I really couldn't taste the difference! I was happy with myself for choosing something different despite whatever ED told me because quite frankly he did tell me to go with the boring chicken but I didn't listen, I ate what I wanted and NOT ED. With the turkey dog I had some baked beans and some TJ's stir fried veggies. After dinner we all hung out together and I had a Boost later on then went to bed since it was getting late.

After a good night's sleep I woke up ready to spend the day with the kiddos!I had a yogurt mess with Fage and Cheerios topped with banana and Justin's butter. Clif Mojo Sweet & Salty Trail Mix Bar for snack. This bar is so good filled with tons peanut butter chips and I love the sweet & salty combo.

My aunt, grammy, cousin and I took the two little ones downtown for the afternoon since we were on babysitting duty for the day! We first stopped at Uncle's Deli for lunch. My aunt and uncle mentioned this place to be good and it was voted the best deli four years in a row so we just had to stop and eat there. The thing I learned this weekend is that the kids go first and I go second! I hade to make sure they got their lunch and ate it before I could get mine!I got the typical turkey, american cheese, lettuce, and tomato on wheat bread. The sandwich was loaded with turkey as you can see. When it comes to ordering sandwiches for lunch I always tell myself I am going to try something new since there are SO many different chooses but ED always chimes in and just tells me to go with my usual go to lunch sandwich and I can't stand it because I WANT to eat something new! I mean I do love turkey but having it almost ever day I kind of get sick of it and want and need a change, so that is one thing I am definitely working on now a days.Afternoon snack was a Chocolate Chip Clif Bar before heading to the beach before dinner. We went around 6 o'clock and the beach was so nice beacuse it was not super HOT but it was still very enjoyable.For dinner we just got take out and I got a Grilled Chicken salad with bread on the side. It was definitely not the world's greatest, just a typical pizzza house salad. Blah. But like Janetha always says ya win some, ya lose some and I guess I lost this one. Later last night I had a Boost and then went straight to bed because I was tired and needed some major rest.

This morning I woke up and made breakfast for the two little ones and then made myself breakfast.

I had another yogurt mess in the Fage container with the last remains of the yog, Kashi Honey Sunshine and banana topped with Costco creamy peanut butter which was very good and creamyyy. I ate a Lemon Zest Luna Bar this morning for a snack and realized how much I really miss Luna Bars so I need to make sure I have them more often ;) Then I went for a walk with the kids in the stroller around the neighborhood.

For lunch we went to the Sugar Bowl Luncheonette! My aunt and uncle recommended we all go there for lunch since they love it and now I know why. The inside was super cool and I wish I took some pictures. It was filled with summery and beachy things and my aunt said they always decorate for all the holidays! I love how it was so hip and very diner like! I could tell all the locals love it here.
Again I got the usual turkey, american cheese, lettuce, and tomato on toasted wheat bread. Boring I know! But this time I got some sweet potato fries that were face rockin' delicious!

Then it was time to say good-bye and hit the road to go home :(
On the way home I snacked on a Cookie Dough Balance Bar. Melty and chocolately but still good!

When I got home it was just my dad and I so he offered to go and grab us dinner from Panera Bread and I got the Strawberry Poppyseed & Chicken salad with a baguette on the side.

Well there it is folks! I am tired from this fun-filled weekend and am going to bed now because tomorrow I gotta full day of nannying ahead of myself :)

And I'm off!

2010-07-16T10:04:00.008-04:00

Hey loves and Happy Friday! I am going to do a lil quick post for y'all before I head out for the weekend once again :) I am visiting my cousins for the weekend with my aunt and grandma!

So you can probably say I have been a lil obsessed with overnight oats lately.
Yesterday morning I woke up to Overnight Oats in a Jar.The night before I mixed a packet of oatmeal with Yoplait Plain Greek yogurt in an almost empty jar of AB and added a lil bit of milk and let it sit overnight to soak up. Then in the AM I added sliced banana on top and gave it some stirs and there ya have it!Holy yum! It is soo good. I love how the oats get soaked up in the yogurt and how with each bite I get a taste of AB ;)

Since I had yet another nearly empty jar of pb I just had to re-create OOIAJ again last night for this morning ;)
This was the same as the previous day with a packet of oatmeal and Yoplait Plain Greek yogurt in a pb jar and then topped with banana.If you haven't tried Overnight Oats I highly advise you to give it a try tonight!

I haven't forgotten about my lovely yogurt messes, don't worry!Yummy omlet made with two eggs, american cheese, and broccoli with an english muffin with the last droplets of blueberry jam, I know pretty pathetic but that's all that was left!

I have been switching up my morning snacks by trying new and different bars.

Kashi Caramel Peanut Roll! bar. These Roll! bars are very good and I love how chewy they are as well.Peanut Butter Pretzel Clif Mojo bar.I love how sweet and salty this bar is!Nature's Path MMMaple Pecan chewy granola bar.

Lunches have been the typical turkey sandwiches.

And of course with Annie's Chocolate Bunnies. We have come pretty much in love with Annie's products in my house that my mom stocked up with a few boxes at Target since they were on sale :) We also love Annie's mac & cheese too!I had this Strawberry Crunch Harvest Power Bar the other day at the movies when I went to see Grown-Ups which was wicked funny, almost too funny. I like these bars and they are very oat-y (if that makes any sense?!). They are nutritionally the same as Clif Bars but are a nice change.

This whole week I have been having dinner kinda lately. Kinda random but I just thought I would let y'all know!

A few nights ago I had Chicken Alredo with broccoli!

Pre-ED this dinner was definitely one of my favorite meals...no doubt! I would order it out at restaurants and loved my mom's homemade chicken alfredo. But ever since ED I have strayed away from it because of course the dreaded SAUCE. ED would once again tell me not to have this meal because of the sauce, he would suggest I just have it plain with the noodles, broccoli, & chicken. Umm can you say boring and so not tasty?! I think so. I mean of course I would be getting in my carbs, veggies, and protein, but hello what about a lil bit of fat to make this dish taste that much better! I was so glad I had this meal for dinner and it tasted amazing :)

Yesterday my mom and I made one of our weekly visits to Target (of course) and this little package spotted my eye ;)

This would be P.F. Changs Shrimp in a Garlic Sauce. I have never seen these meals or heard about them before, have you? They had a buch of different variations but I settled on this one. They were also on clearance since I don't think they are selling at the Target I go to. But don't worry because I bought them ;) This meal was super easy to cook as well. All I had to do was cook it on a skillet on medium high for about ten minutes and look how tasty it looks! It was as if I was actually dining at P.F. Changs ;)Since this frozen meal only came with shrimp and veggies I need some carbs in this meal (obvs!) so I could up some white rice and then topped it with the shrimp and veggies. This meal was quite spicy since it was cooked in garlic sauce but it added a great kick to it which I loved! Overall I really enjoyed this meal and plan on going back to Target to buy some more of the other flavors since they were good and on sale.

Well I am off to go get my eyebrows waxed then to the bank, Borders to get me some books, and get a sticker on my car all before I leave for the weekend in about 2 1/2 hours! Eeek!

Have a great weekend :)

I'm back!!

2010-07-13T11:47:00.012-04:00

Well hello there! Hope you all have been doing fabulous :) This past weekend I was in NJ for my lil sis' lax tourney which was fun!

Monday I met with my therapist and yesterday with my nutritionist, which both went well. One interesting topic my therapist and I talked about was how to not let ED make me worry so much about what is going to happen in the future. I need to just let it happen even though I always like to know what is going to happen. But what I have learned is that fearing the unknown and not knowing what exactly is going to happen is okay and sometimes surprises can be okay and good. I just need to stop worrying and go with the flow and for the most part everything will fall into place and be okay.

I was also glad to meet with my nutritionist to go over my meal plan to make sure it is working. Over the past few weeks she said I have been gaining at a steady weight and to just keep doing what I have been doing since then. We also made a few more tweaks in it as well.

Eats lately have been...
yogurt messes of course! They are the perfect summer breakfast.Chocolate Chip Brownie Larabar tasted just like a very chocolately brownie. It was very yummy! OMG I just finished this book Little Bee which I started last Wednesday and was so good I could not put it down! It is a must read in my book ;)Tropical Fruit LarabarKashi Chocolate Caramel Crunchy Bar. Very good! I loved the mix of chocolate and caramel together and plus it had pieces of popcorn in it!

Last Saturday I saw my first ever PITA PIT and I just knew I had to try it! Pita Pit is such a cool sub shop and I am so glad I finally got to try it after I have seen so many bloggers rave about it! I got the grilled turkey with american cheese, lettuce and tomato all wrapped up in a pita! I guess my camera liked it that much that it ate it.

I have also been obsessed with Annie's Bunny Grahams Honey! They are so soft and yummy :)
Lunches lately have been pretty typical of me...turkey sandwiches.Again I gotta tell ya babysitting is a tough job layin' out by the pool ;)White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Clif Bar outside in the sun :)

I have been trying a lot of Trader Joe's products lately!
This is the White Chicken Sesame Noodle Bowl that my mom raves about all the time hence the reason why she bought 8 of them last trip to TJ's since they rarely have them! So when they are at the store she stocks up on 'em.This was my first time trying this TJ frozen meal and it was great! It had noodles with white chicken, carrots, and peas topped with a sesame ginger sauce. The resaon why I have never had this meal before was because of ED! He tells me to avoid all types of sauces at all costs because I don't know what they are made from and how much calories in it etc. Well ya know what ED?! I really don't care! I was going to have this meal and enjoy every bite of it and that was exactly what I did. I had this meal for dinner one night and all I needed was add a dinner roll and it fit perfectly into my meal plan.

More new products from Trader Joe's...
Brown Rice California Rolls and a Greek Salad. This was my first time trying sushi that wasn't a veggie roll and I must say I loved the California rolls which had carrots, avocado, & crab meat rolled in brown rice. And plus I haven't had avocado before and I love it now as well. This is defs my new favorite sushi roll :)This past weekend at my sister's lacrosse tourney we all went out to dinner, all the players and their families. ED definitely stirred up a bit of stress for me when I found out we were going to an Italian restaurant and were given only 4 chooses from...Chicken parm, Veal parm, Stuffed Flounder, or Chicken Francese. ED told me to order something else that was "safe" from the menu but I didn't want to be THAT girl ordering something "special" from the menu that nobody else could order. I am no more special or more important than anyone else there and I decided I was going to order one of those 4 chooses for dinner and eat it because I also didn't want to be THAT girl at the table not eating!

I started off with a House Salad with Italian dressing. Yes you heard me right, the dressing was already poured on the salad so I just had to eat it with the dressing already on it and not knowing how much was poured on or how many calories were in it etc. But who cares, because guess what?! I ate it!

I ordered the Chicken Francese which I had never had before and had no idea what it was going to look like, what is was served with, or even if I was going to like it! Well I kinda knew I would probs like it because it was just chicken, but I didn't know what type of sauce was going to be on it.The menu described it as a Boneless breast of chicken, egg, white wine & lemon served with greens beans and spaghetti with marinara sauce. Even though ED told me not to eat the sauce because it was unknown I still did. I was proud of myself for eating this dinner!

Now I don't wanna tell you that everything is going great in my recovery because that would be a lie. This past weekend at my sister's tournament I kinda struggled a bit. To tell you the truth on Saturday I did not follow my meal plan quite so well although ED was quite happy, deep down inside I was not. That is why I tried to get back on track on Sunday. I think it is real hard for me when I am not at home to recovery. I seem to do well at home because there are less distractions to interfere with my recovery. Although I do know that I need to be able to recover under any circumstances.

One thing I have been having a real hard time with is comparing myself to other girls and how they look vs. how I look. ED always tells me that I should look like her because she is skinnier than me but in reality I know she is NOT as skinny as I am but ED convinces me that she is and that I don't need to gain any more weight. When this happens I always go to my sisters and ask them if that girl is skinnier than me and they will say "Jenna, are you serious? NO!" When I am struggling with ED thoughts I always go to my sisters because they give me the reassurance I need. My girl Shelley wrote a post on Why Comparing is a Waste of Time and if you haven't read it yet I suggest you do and right about now ;)

Happy Humpday!

Mideast Feast!

2010-07-06T20:11:00.008-04:00

Hey hey hey! Is it hot enough outside for ya? It sure is here! The past week has been such summer weather and today we actually hit 100 degrees! Cra crayyy! But I wasn't too worried because I was nannying all day which meant hanging out by the pool and inside with the AC ;)

I also met with my therapist today which went well. I can't say it enough but I am truly glad and blessed I finally found a therapist that I am satisfied with :) We talked a lot about how I need to be in control of ED and not let ED control me. It is important I be active rather than passive in recovery. I need to want to recover rather than just sitting around hoping and wishing to recover and the only person who can do this is ME!

Moving onto my eats lately!
More yoatgurt! I love the combination of hot oatmeal and cold yogurt together, especially topped with banana and peanut butter.Can't forget about the yogurt messes obvs.

I have been having lots of Larabars as a morning snack.

The new Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Larabar that just came out!I thought this bar was very good. I mean let's be real how could anything with peanut butter and chocolate not be good! Although this bar was very crumbly and did not hold together well.Apple Pie LarabarKashi Chocolate Turtle Roll! This bar was chewy and delish filled with chocolate, caramel, pecans, crisps, and whole grains.

So I guess you can say I am lovin' Annie's Cheddar Bunnies ;)
Subway for lunch two days in a row! But hey whose counting?!Turkey & swiss with lettuce and tomatoes.Dinner last night was the Panera Strawberry & Poppyseed Salad with freshly baked bread. This is such a nice and refreshing salad for the summertime!

This afternoon I went to Trader Joe's with my mom and I picked up this gem along with some sushi, salad, yogurt, and Clif Bars.
This would be Trader Joe's Mideast Feast! For the past two times I shopped at TJ's I have been eyeing this meal but this afternoon I actually bought it! I have seen a lot of bloggers eat and rave about Meditteranean food and it looks great and I just really wanted to try it out myself...so that is what I did!

This was a big step for buying this meal because ED kind of freaked out since I have never really had a Mediterranean meal before and he kept telling me I shouldn't buy it because it was a mixed meal rather than having separate proteins, carbs, fats, etc. If that makes any sense to you?!

ED also was telling me I wasn't sure of how many calories, carbs, fat, protein, etc it had in it and if it fit into my meal plan and blah blah blah and all in all it actually fit my meal plan pretty well ;) ED was just totally making me freak out for no reason at all! So in the end I just bought it and ate it for dinner tonight :) Take that ED!
This meal had a pita, falafel balls, hummus, tabbouli, and tahini sauce. This was my first time ever trying falafel balls and they were great and I really liked them. I decided not to make a pita sandwich but rather dip the pitas into the hummus and then eat everything else separatly to truly see what I did and didn not like. Although I was NOT a big fan of the tabbouli at all...yuck! So overall I love this meal and can't wait to have Mediterranean food again in the future and now I know what I like and do not like. You never know until you try it, right?!

Have a great night and keep cool!

Happy 4th :)

2010-07-03T11:55:00.009-04:00

Happy 4th of July weekend :) I hope you all have a great weekend filled with fun, family, friends, and food!

Recovery wise I have been doing real well lately and I couldn't be any happier with myself. I had my weekly weigh-in this past Thursday which went well and I just hope to continue on this path. Although I do know that recovery will not always be easy and go this well. I know there will be hard times but I am ready for those times and will take care of them when they arrive. There is no need to worry about the future now!

This morning for breakfast I tried Fage 2% with Strawberry!
To. Die. For.I made some YOATGURT with oatmeal and Fage yogurt topped with sliced bananas, strawberry, and peanut butter. This was by far one of the best breakfasts I have had because it was full of all different flavors which I loved! You will be seeing this again in the near future. Perhaps tomorrow?! Hah.

The other morning I tried Siggi's Vanilla yogurt for the first time ever and let me just tell you it was the THICKEST yogurt I have ever had by far. I swear I could have held the container upside down and the yogurt would have stayed put. No lie.
Siggi's yogurt mixed up with Cascadian Farms Purely O's, banana, and Justin's maple almond butter. It was quite the yogurt mess.I forgot how good these babies are and I just had to bring them back into my life. The Cinnamon Roll Larabar: dates, walnuts, almonds, raisins, cashews, and cinnamon. The ingredient list was short and sweet and the way I like it ;)

Nannying these days has just been so hard laying out by the pool...
I kid I kid! Don't get me wrong I do a lot of running around like driving to swim, school, camp, playing, arts & crafts, and preparing meals & snacks. But in all honestly I really do love my summer job!

Lunches have been pretty simple and my go to meals since I have been nannying during the day. So there has been lots of turkey & cheese sandwiches. But I am lovin' the new turkey my mom just bought, Boar's Head Salsalito Turkey! So good and has a nice lil kick to it.
I have been having many Clif Bars as my afternoon snacks. These are the perfect bars for me an afternoon snack because they fit my meal plan accordingly and there are soo many flavors to choose from and plus there tasty.Cool Mint Chocolate aka Girl Scouts Thin Mint Cookie! Next time I must heat this in the micro as I couldn't this time since I was in Home Depot with my mom and grammy looking at ceiling fans for well over an hour. But alas my grammy FINALLY decided on a fan and bought it. At least that shopping trip is over!Ok so the other afternoon after nannying I came home to a box of these......and six boxes of these! You may ask where they all came from? Well so did I! My mom ordered them all on-line just because she is awesome like that! Gotta love her :)So of course I had to try my newest addiction of Tuna Mac & cheese last night! Sooo good! Dinners have been going well and tasty if I do say so myself!Cheeseburger, wacky mac pasta salad and barbeque popchips.BBQ grilled chicken, broccoli, potatoes, and a roll with butter.The other night the fam and I went out to Ruby Tuesdays for dinner and I ordered the same salad as I did last time just a few weeks ago because it was that good, Asian Salmon Spinach Salad. I knew I probably should have ordered something else to challenge myself but I didn't but perhaps next time I will try something new on the menu.

Well I am off to get ready for this weekend because I got a cookout to go to later today! Happy 4th :)

Just checking in

2010-06-29T20:28:00.011-04:00

Why hello lovies! Just doin' a quick lil check in ;) For the past week or so have been going really well for me and I just hope I can keep things rollin' in this same direction! I am just totally sick of this whole ED and how it has ruined more of my life than I would have liked and he is NOT going to take away any more of my life...this is IT!

I met with my therapist on Monday and she really is the best! I work very well with her and we have worked on so much together already. The main thing I have learned and have been using lately is to focus on the PRESENT (like I have said before) and to forget about the past because it is over and done with and to stop worrying about the future because there is nothing I can do about it now and if I do what I need to do now in the present then the future will take care of itself. I must say it has been working for me! We also talked about what to do to prevent be going downhill which usually happens for me after a few weeks in recovery when ED tells me I have done well for a few weeks and now I can take it easy but he is NOT true!

I have been very busy nanying lately in this HOT summer weather!I have been having yogurt messes because they are perfect for on the go and tasty obvs, especially these lil packets of Justin's peanut butter!Lovin' pb crackers and sudoku puzzles. I am pretty sure I am addicted to these! They have been keeping me sane and busy while the kiddos are having down time during my 15 hour shifts :oSubway Turkey, swiss, lettuce, and tomato on wheat with pretzels and an apple.I had a ham sandwich the other day and boy let me tell you I was not happy with it! I thought the ham was very salty (yuck!) and would have much rather prefered my turkey but we were all out but alas mom went grocery shopping today so we are now all stocked up.

Clif Bars where have you been!? I sure have missed them and I am SO glad I brought them back ;)
One of my fav Clifs is Chocolate Chip and this was the first time I heated it up in the micro and it was amazing! Do try it, you will not be disappointed!But I must remind you do NOT put the wrapper in the micro or else it will make some weird noise and you will quickly remember it is metal and immediately open the door and proceed to put the bar on a plate instead. It's not like I did this or anything at all ;)Another fav is Oatmeal Rasisin Walnut. Need I say more about the Chocolate Brownie? I mean let's be real it tastes just like a homemade chocolate brownie! Yumms.

Dinners have been going real well for me lately.
Dinner while nannying last night. Italian chicken, corn on the cob, broccoli, and sweet potatoes that I made! I LOVE making my own meals now :) It is a sense of accomplishment and a good feeling in my recovery!Trader Joe's salmon, pasta salad, broccoli, and a roll with butter.BBQ on Sunday at the cousin's house. If you haven't already noticed from my posts this summer, I go to lots of cookouts and I LOVE it! That is what summer is all about. I had a cheeseburger along with some pasta salad and some chips not pictured.

I was so proud of myself for this dinner because at previous cook outs this summer (when I wasn't doing all that well in my recovery) I would get my food and then go up in the screen porch and eat by myself. Of course this was such an ED behavior. I just didn't want my family looking at me and the food I was eating or not eating. I mean the whole concept of cookouts is to eat and mingle, right?!

But this past cookout my mom and I arrived later and everyone else already eaten. Uhh ohhh! So what was I gonna do, get my food and go up and eat alone? HELL NO! I was hungry and I was gonna get my food and sit down at the table by the pool and eat my dinner even though everyone else had finished eating and was currently talking. I don't know what it was but something just hit me and I did what I wanted to do and not what ED wanted to do! I got my plate and sat down and got eating and talking, it felt great! Even though I saw my aunt and grandma look at what I was eating I knew that was expected and I don't think those "helicopter" eyes are gonna go away from me anytime soon. But I know they are eyes of concern and love and they only want the best for me!!

I am now off to watch The Hills and The City and then getting to bed early for another full day of nannying tomorrow!

Motivation

2010-06-26T10:42:00.008-04:00

During recovery I have learned so much about myself, my eating disorder, and recovery etc. But one thing that seems to be the most important during my recovery is motivation! Without it I don't think I would be able to recover from my ED.

These past few weeks as summer has finally begun something hit me and it hit me hard! I used to be the queen of fashion, I loved to shop and dress up as I have soo many clothes. But I must admit my ED has totally robbed me off that. During my ED I have hardly care what I look like and I hate that. During the winter I would just throw on sweats to cover my body and it wasn't a big deal. But now as the summer is here with the hot temperatures I can't cover my body in sweatshirts and sweatpants as I need to start wearing summer clothes.

But the problem is that i look absolutely horrible in summer clothes and I hate the way my body looks as it is NOT the way it should look! I hate how skinny my arms and legs are and how my chest bones stick out, it is gross and I can't stand it!!

This hit me last week when the temperatures were really hot and I was wearing light sweatpants and a t-shirt and it sucked. I was sweating to death as I was wishing I could wear my summer clothes like everyone else. I also hate the fact that it is summertime and I can't even go swimming or wear a bathing suit and feel comfortable in it without people looking at me like a freak.

That is why I went out shopping a few days ago and bought a super cute outfit that I can't wait to wear once I get better! My motivation now is to be able to look happy, healthy, comfortable, and beautiful in my clothes! Every time that I struggle with ED thoughts or eating I just remind myself that each step I take in ignoring ED will just get me closer and closer to recovery and closer to being able to wear all my clothes!

Last night I tried on the dress with all of the accesories and showed my mom. Yeah I know you are probably thinking why I did that! Well I decided to show her because I felt this impulse all of a sudden as I was just so happy in myself that I WANT to 100% recover and be able to wear this outfit soon! When I think of how good my life will be after I recover I get in such a good mood and can't wait to recover each day and become that much closer to beating ED. I know it may sound weird but it's true for me!

I showed my mom the outfit and I told her how good I would look in this outfit with more weight on me and she began to smile and cry at the same time because she obvs loved the outfit but more importantly she was happy to hear that I finally realized how I need to gain weight not only to look normal in clothes but more importantly to be HEALTHY!

But like I said yesterday in my post I just keep taking it day by day and that is the only way to do it!

What motivates you these days?!

Day by Day

2010-06-25T21:08:00.016-04:00

Hello petunias and Happy Friday! If you can't already tell by my post title, but my motto these days has been "day by day" meaning I am taking each day...day by day! Pretty self explainatory if you ask me. I have learn to just take each day as a brand new day and not dwell on the past or worry about the future but more importantly focus on the PRESENT!

Eats lately... Purely O's are just like Cheerios but smaller and more air-y. The only thing I don't like about them is they tend to get quite soggy when mixed in my yogurt messes. No biggie, I will survive and still eat them ;)Obviously I have been eating yogurt messes pretty much erryday!Strawberry Yoplait was dynamite (since I am listening to this song as I type this). I loved how thick it was and the strawberry flavor!Strawberry banana yogurt mess in a jarSo I am pretty sure I have a new found love of making omelets..and obviously eating them ;) This is a broccoli and cheese egg omelet with an english muffin topped with strawberry jam. Omelets will never get old because they are packed with protein, quick and easy to make, and most importantly tastyyy.

I definitely have been getting in my fair share of healthy fats and peanut butters in my snacks lately.

Lunches have been pretty typical of me. Either turkey & cheese or tuna & cheese and you can probably tell that I am lovin' pears right now. Just sayin'. But there was one day when I did have a juicy peach ;)

I must say this past week I have been working real hard on my dinner meals since they always seem to be a problem for me. I have been cooking more and more of my meals and eating different foods as well.

Now something I have NOT had in a longgg time (probs since before my ED) is Mac & Cheese. Oh how I used to love it and it is defs still a staple food in my house these days for my younger sis.

I found this package of Annie's White Cheddar Mac & Cheese of individual servings and decided to give them a try. I thought I would do better with the individual packets rather than the box and then having to figure out how much to have and such, I thought this would be easier but still yet a challenge.
I know this may sound like a shocker but I have never had any of Annie's products before! I know can you believe that?! Well I sure can't because I have defs been missing out on a lot of delish foods. This mac & cheese was great and I loved the white cheddar cheese! To pump up my mac & cheese I added a can of tuna! It may sound weird but it was delish. This was the first time I have ever had Tuna Mac & cheese and I don't know where I got the idea but I must have seen it somewhere before and decided to give it a try and it was a great combo together. I will defs be re-creating this meal again but next time I am gonna add some broccoli! I am getting hungry just thinking about it.

Tonight I went out with my younger sis and cousin to Chili's for dinner.

We started with the usual chips & salsa which I actually took part in and ate this time! We go to Chili's quite frequently and ever since my ED I would never have any chips. I would only just eat my meal because ED told me I didn't need any chips before my meal but yet again what does he know. I was very proud of myself for eating the chips before my meal rather than sitting there watching everyone else at the table eat them. I definitely had my fair shair of chips and salsa tonight!

For my meal I ordered the NEW Carribean Salad with Grilled Shrimp. Fresh pineapple, mandarian oranges, dried cherries, green onions, cilantro, sesame seeds and honey-lime dressing. It was the prefect summer salad and yum is all I have to say!

Ta-ta my lovies and have a great night and weekend!

Be in it

2010-06-21T19:42:00.024-04:00

Hey lovie pies! I hope you all had a great weekend! I know I did because I spent my time visiting the ones I love while enjoying the beautiful summer weather :)

So let me rewind back a few days and fill ya in!

As I was finally felling better after having the stomach bug my mom and I went to visit my grammy at her house since she just had surgery last week. Of course it wouldn't be a complete week if I didn't have lunch with her ;) Since she didn't really feel like going out we instead got take out from a local Irish pub.

I got very anxious and nervous beforehand because since we weren't at the restaurant there wasn't a menu for me to check out and view the food. I ordered the baked haddock and hoped that I would enjoy it.

As soon as I opened up the container ED began to freak out and immediately told me I could NOT eat that piece of fish because of the "mysterious" sauce that was all over it. I just looked at it took a deep breath and told ED to shut up and that I was going to eat and enjoy my meal.

My lunch also came with a side of rice and coleslaw. I was hoping it would have came with a veggie but it didn't and there was nothing I could do about it then. I also had two mini rolls as well. And yes I did say coleslaw and yes I did eat every single bite of it. That's right! Restaurant made coleslaw made! It was very scary for me to eat it because I didn't know exactly what was in it, how many calories in it, or how exactly it fit into my meal plan. But who cares besides ED? Well certainly not me because I just ate it!
After this meal I kind of regretted eating everything because after looking at it ED told me it was too much and I was fat and was now a part of the Clean Plate Club! But I ignored his irrational thoughts and told myself as I am in recovery it is very important that I am eating everything I am required to and that I am follow my meal plan.

Saturday morning arrived and we were off to CT to visit my cousins with my mom, sisters,and cousin!
Before we left I had a yogurt mess of Yoplait Greek, MG Cheerios, banana, and Teddie's pb.Snackin' on the road was necessary. I had a pack of peanut butter crackers and these remind me of my childhood so much. Who else would take the crackers apart and lick the pb off and then eat the crackers?!

After 2 1/2 hours of driving we stopped to grab some lunch at Vavala's Deli before arriving at my cousin's house.
Valvala's was a cute lil deli shop which was super crowded when we got there so I knew it was popular.My uncle said they had great subs and sandwiches and let me tell you they sure did!This sandwich was loaded with Boar's Head turkey, american cheese, lettuce, and tomatoes. It was so big I could barely fit it in my mouth (TWSS). I also had pretzels as well.

We finally arrived at my cousin's house and it was so nice to finally visit them in their new home!

I was greeted by this little bull dog, Rosie! and a pantry that was stocked just like a Trader Joe's store! Umm so when can I move in?! Hah.We hung out at the beach for the afternoon since it was so beautiful out and snacked on a packet of peanuts. The beach was a blast with my family and cousins :)When my aunt asked us what we wanted for dinner and my mom replied with chinese food I wanted to punch her in the face. Of course I really did NOT want to, but ED sure made me want to. I haven't had chinese food ever since I developed my ED and it has definitely and still is a big fear food. I am afraid of it since it is such a different type of food and I never know what the food will look like. I like the feeling of knowing what my food is going to look like and I feel like Chinese food is always kind of a mystery. But then when I acutally see a certain dish that is presented I never thought of it looking like that. I don't know if that makes any sense but that is just how I feel! I never know how exaclty it fits into my meal plan, if I am eating enough or too much, and I also hate how most of the foods are cooked with unknown sauces that ED tells me to stay away from and overall Chinese food just puts me over the edge! I hate it.

Luckily my aunt did have a take out menu for us to look at which was definitely helpful so I could see what they had to offer. My mom knew Chinese food is hard for me and I kind of think she requested it on purpose (Thanks mom!). Acutally, I know she did it on purpose! Ha. Well it may have been a good idea because I am going to have to get over the fear of chinese food sometime or another and why not be now then later!

I am pretty sure I analyzed the menu for a good solid ten minutes figuring out what I wanted. My mom told me I was going to eat what was being ordered and not have a special meal. Eek!The place we ordered out from, Tengda was more of an Asian Bistro reataurant so it offered both Asian and Chinese dishes.

Once I saw what we ordered I felt a major sense of relief because I saw foods that I knew I could handle eating! I just always think of Chinese food as being greasy heavy food like lo mein noodles, crab rangoons, beef/chicken on a stick etc. But I know there are other healthier options I can also choose from as well.
I had some pineapple shrimp, steamed broccoli, and whole grain rice! Times this plate about twice. OMG! Have you ever had or even heard of pinepple shrimp before?! Well I certaintly had not and let me tell you I loved it! It was cooked shrimp mixed with pineapples, onions, and peppers all mixed in a sweet sauce. I will be on the look out for this the next time I order Chinese!

After a late fun Saturday night with my cousins Sunday morning arose and it was breakfast time as well as Father's Day! My uncle got an iPad that my aunt hunted down all over Manhattan for! Can you say jealous?!

My aunt told me she loves Almond milk and doesn't drink cow's milk so I decided to give it a try and let me tell you it was...yuck! I was not a big fan of it. Perhaps it was since it was unsweetened but it tasted totally different from regular cow's milk that I am used to. So at last, I stuck with a glass of Organic cow's milk.
I also found this guy in the fridge and gave it a try as well. But again it was yuck! I have seen this pb at TJ's before and of course my aunt had it since she pretty much has everything from Trader Joe's ;) This pb was very grainy since it contained flaxseed and was crunchy. I was not a fan so I stuck with the jar of Justin's nut butter from the pantry.Yoplait Greek yogurt (which they had as well!), MG Cheerios and banana topped with Justin's and a glass of milk.

My aunt is all about living a healthy lifestyle which I LOVE! She has two lil cute kids, works, and exercises! Oh did I mention she like to shops?! Hah! She is a fit woman eats healthy and well, indulges in treats, and does not obsess or worry about her weight. She works out regularly and is a woman who I look up to so much :) Visiting her this weekend really got me motivated to recover from my ED!

The reason we went to CT was to visit my cousin's new house and for my sister's lax tourney on Sunday. Lunch was eaten back at my cousin's house and then the rest of the day was spent watching my sister's five lacrosse games in the scorching heat!

Snack was a serving of a trail mix from Trader Joe's that I took from my cousin's house. I used to avoid away from the mixes that contained chocolate and such but now I don't! This mix contain almonds, peanuts, raisins, and M & M's!

After a long day filled with lacrosse it was ready to hit the road back home. We grabbed dinner at a service center where I picked up a Southwest Grilled Chicken salad with romaine lettuce, corn, black beans, tomatoes, pepper, cheese and tortilla strips! I also had a bag of pretzels as well. We got home around 11pm and even though I usually have my evening snack well before that I still managed to have it. My ED voice kept telling me not to have it since it was too late but I ignored him and enjoyed a frozen Vanilla Boost.

Yesterday morning was the first day of summer and I enjoyed a yogurt mess for breakfast.Yoplait Greek yogurt, Honey Nut Cheerios, banana, and Teddie's peanut butter with a glass of milk.

I then had my therapy appointment which went very well! I really do love her and enjoy working with her. We talked about a lot of stuff like focusing on the present and not worrying about the future because there is nothing I can do about the future now! What I need to do is to focus on the present and then the future will take care of itself. We also talked about being IN IT. I need to be in recovery and not hanging out with ED because he will get me no where!Afterwards I went to pick up a few things at the store, bananas, apples, pears, turkey, yogurt, Lipton Iced tea packets, Purely O's Cascadian Farms for only $2.99! and PB & Co. The Bee's Knees!Lunch was a wheat turkey panini with american cheese and sliced pears with pretzels and the rest of the pear on the side.PM snack was TJ's trail mix again. It is an addiction!Baked salmon, rice, broccoli, and a roll with butter.

Now on to dinner!Last week I picked up some frozen salmon from Trader Joe's and decided to cook it up tonight. When it comes to dinner time I usually just want something quick and easy to make so I can eat it so I don't have to do any thinking about what to make and over analyze it! I have always and still struggle with dinner meals which is why I tend to buy frozen meals for dinner since they just need to be heated up and there is no thinking involved.

But last night since I had the kitchen to myself I decided to take the time and cook my own dinner! I pan fried the salmon on the stove top and drizzeld some olive oil and seasoning on top and cooked 5 minutes on both sides. I was so proud of myself for not having a frozen dinner and was able to cook my own dinner! I really loved it and that is why I am going to stray away from frozen entrees and cook more of my own dinner meals!

I know it may sound weird but I was very proud of myself for cooking my own dinner without relying on frozen meals or my mom to make me dinner. I can't wait to cook more of my own dinner meals :)

Whew! Well that was a long post and if you got through it all then give yourself a lil pat on the back! Have a great Tuesday and I am off to enjoy the summer weather!

When you're sick...

2010-06-18T09:14:00.011-04:00

When you're sick with the stomach bug the last thing you want to think about is food since you have no appetite what so ever and the thought of food just makes your stomach queeze :( To sum it up the stomach bug is no fun.

Yesterday morning I woke up feelin' much better than I did Wednesday (that's for sure). I stuck to a wicked bland diet of simple carbs and stayed away from all sorts of dairy products and heavy foods.

As I am currently trying to recover from ED and gain weight getting the stomach bug was the last thing my body needed. Since I am at a low body weight and BMI my body cannot afford to get sick because it will be very hard to fight off the sickness. So I made sure I took every precaution to take care of myself in order to recover from this sickness ASAP.

My boring eats from yesterday included...This morning I woke up feeling much better! Still not 100% but pretty close. Since it had been nearly 48 hours since I last "tossed my cookies" I thought my stomach would be able to handle dairy products once again and what better way than to start my morning with 2% STRAWBERRY BANANA Chobani yogurt!This was my FIRST time ever trying 2 % Greek yogurt. This was definitely a challenge for me since I am used to my non-fat Greek yogurt. I legit bought this yogurt nearly two weeks ago and this morning I was finally brave enough to eat it!The 2% yogurt totally beats non-fat yogurt in the texture department. It was so much creamier and I loved the mix of strawberry and bananas together! I will no longer avoid the 2% yogurt just because my ED tells me they are just so called "wasted fat" that my body does not need...but in reality my body does need fat! I will definitely be purchasing this yogurt again :)

I also broke open a new jar of Teddie's Smooth peanut butter. It was a long time since I last had Teddie's and was happy to be re-united again.Today's weather is supposed to be super HOT and close to the 90's! Bring it on summertime and Happy Friday everyone!

Blah

2010-06-16T18:49:00.016-04:00

Hey boos! Long time no talk but have no fear because I am back ;)

According to Kesha, wake up in the morning feeling like P-Diddy...well unfortunately that was so not the case for me :( Ever since yesterday afternoon I had wicked bad stomach aches and was up all night long. Then this morning I thought I was feeling a lil better and had the usual yog mess for breaky (which probably wasn't the smartest decision on my part) because in less than two hours it all came back up and out the rear end...TMI?!
So let's just say these have been my new best friends all day long: Gatorade, soup, and pretzels. That's pretty much all my stomach can handle right about now since I have barely any appetite now (boo!) and when I think of eating anything else I feel like throwin' up just thinking about it :/

I have been resting on the couch all day watching movies and doing sudoku puzzles. I watched Dear John this afternoon and it was a great movie!

So since I have been laying low all day I decided this would be a great opporunity to post!
Tried the new (to me) Multi-Grain Cheerios with 5 different whole grains.

I have consumed plenty of yogurt messes per usual as you will see...
Yogurt messes topped with TJ's almond butter just always hit the spot ;)I think that was enough pics of my AB yogurt messes, I think you get the point that I love AB!yog messes obvs have to be mixed up or it is not a yog mess...duh!

OIAJ have been consumed as well.

I also tried the Dunkin Donuts Egg White Veggie flatbread with cheese for breaky one morning when I was on the go.This flatbread was quite tasty and I would definitely have it again in the future.Kind Fruit & Nut Delight barTurkey, american cheese, and apple slices on whole wheat bread paniniedLoaded turkey Subway with swiss cheese and tons of veggiesGrilled chicken wrap with lettuce & tomatoes along with some chips that I had in between my cousin's dance recitals.

Last week my mom, grandma, and myself went out to lunch and decided on Ruby Tuesday's. I think since I have been home, all three of us have been going out to lunch at least once a week together! Loves it.This would be the NEW Asian Salmon Spinach Salad: Garden-fresh spinach topped with slow cooked salmon, adamame, black beans, carrots, chopped egg, and sliced cucumbers. Topped with sesame seeds and wonton strips along with sesame-peanut dressing.

I don't know why I haven't been to Ruby Tuesday's in so long time since there is one right up the street from me! I totally forgot how much I like it there and after having this salad I will definitely be back again soon ;) Actually a few days after we went my mom wanted to go again because she LOVES the salad bar. They have a pretty bomb salad bar I must say and if you haven't checked out RT then I highly recommend you do.

Nothing is more better than being home to enjoy home cooked meals by my mom ;)Mom's homemade meat & spinach lasagna
Mom's cheeseburgers topped with american cheese, lettuce, and tomatoes Rustic Veggie pizzaTaco night!Summertime BBQs! Trader Joe's Chicken Vindaloo Veggies and white chicken with a vindaloo curry sauce served over steamed rice. Overall I enjoyed this meal and it had a great spicy kick to it in the curry sauce.

On the other hand this Red Curry Chicken Kashi frozen meal was not a big winner for me, it was just okay and I probably wouldn't buy this particular frozen entree again as I like some others much more. There was something my tastebuds just really did not like in this meal but I could not pin point what exactly it was?! Chicken breast with fire-roasted sweet potato, bok choy, red peppers, bamboo shots and kale served over pilaf and topped with zesty Thai red curry sauce.

Well that's what I got for ya on this Humpday evening. I am now off to drink a Dunkins Orange Coolata and chill out on the couch for the night. A girls gotta keep hydrated! I just hope I will start to feel better soon!

It's summertime!

2010-06-04T10:15:00.017-04:00

Hollah atchya and Happy FRIDAY! I hope you have been enjoying summer thus far because I know I have! I have been busy working, relaxing, and taking day trips, I think that is what summer is all about! Oh yes and of course I have been eatin' good food as well ;)

Breakfast has of course been lots of yog messes! Since I nanny in the AM I tend to bring my breakfast meals with me and yogurt messes are perfect and easy to pack up.
Yesterday morning I broke open my new jar of Trader Joe's Almond Butter!Holy yum! This almond butter was very creamy which I love because I was able to drizzle it all over my yog mess and it tasted exactly like I was eating almonds!Why haven't I tried this AB before is beyond me! So I just had to have it again this morning ;)

I have been taking a lot of day trips recently which have been super fun! Last week I went to SIX FLAGS with my aunt, uncle, cousins, and sister. I knew it was going to be a very hot and long day filled with tons of walking so I made sure to pack snacks for the day. I had to keep myself fueled throughout the day.
pretzels, pear, almonds, Kashi Chocolate Caramel Crunchy! bar.Lunch at the park was a turkey sandwich with a sweet granny smith apple and unpictured pretzels.

Yesterday afternoon I went to the Red Sox game with my dad :) Even though they lost it was a great game and it was a beautiful day to spend in the ballpark!
Yawkey Way! Fenway Park is by far the greatest ballpark there is, hands down!view from our seatsLunch at the ballpark was a huge turkey wrap with cheese, lettuce, and tomatoes along with a bag of Miss.Vickie's chips.The other day I got a lil something something from Larabar! Even though the NEW flavors don't come out until July they were kind enough to send me some early!! So excited to try them...Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip, Chocolate Chip Brownie, Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough, and Carrot Cake. Thank you so much Larabar :)

Since it is summertime you know what that means...lots and lots of barbeques. The past 3 weekends I have gone to different bbqs but I ain't complainin'. After all it is sweet summertime :)

barbeque chicken wing, fruit salad, pasta salad, and a bun.I tried this Eggplant Parmesan from Trader Joe's.I have never had eggplant parmesan before but it was good and I loved all of the cheesey goodness on top.I also had yet another Trader Joe's frozen meal. I think I am becoming quite addicted to TJ's ;) I forget what exactly this meal was called but it is a winner in my book. It is brown noodles mixed with tons of veggies and has a nice spicy kick to it. It's back...yes the Lemon Poppyseed & Chicken salad at Panera Bread. This salad just screams SUMMERTIME to me and I just knew I had to have it along with a fresh baguette.

I know a lot of you have been wondering how I am doing recovery wise. I will be honest with you and I am just doing OK. I have been meetin with my therapist weekly and my nutritionist every other week and I am working well with both of them which I am happy about! I can't afford to keep living my life with ED. It is so NOT worth it and I hate the feeling of depriving myself, not recovering, and not being able to live my life :) As my dad's favorite motto to me lately has been "JUST DO IT!" and that is what I have been trying to do :)

I am off to get ready for the day and then I am going out to eat with my mom and Grammy yet again and then nannying later this afternoon!

Happy Friday and enjoy the weekend!

Nut Lovin'

2010-05-27T17:55:00.014-04:00

Is anyone out there? Do I still have any readers? Well I sure hope so! I know I have been kind of MIA for the past week or so but I just really have been busy and truth be told I just haven't had anything important or fun to share so I really didn't want to just blog to blog and bore you. I have been nannying every weekday and this week I was dealing with some personal family issues but now everything seems to be well and now I am here ready to blog :)

The other day I made a quick lil trip to TJ's :)Got some naners, 2 frozen meals, eggplant parm, and ALMOND BUTTER!Yup that's right I bought myself some Trader Joe's Almond Butter. I have seen all over the blog world (especially this lovely lady) and heard great reviews about it and I cannot wait to give it a try!!

I also went to the grocery store with my mom that same night and grabbed a few essentials.

PB & Co. WHITE CHOCOLATE WONDERFUL! I was so happy when I found this beauty on the shelf because I haven't been able to find it but alas Stop & Shop had it :) So of course ya know me I just had to buy it! I can't wait to try this as well!

It was kind of funny because that same morning I was reading this lovely girl's blog and she mentioned how she couldn't find WCW peanut butter anywhere and then I commented how I couldn't either but then I later found it that day. Yeah, I know I'm weird ;) Just bear with me!

Some eats lately...Kashi Mighty Bites. Let's just say I have been consuming many yog messes lately since of the hot weather recently! But hey, I am so not complaining about the summer weather or my yogurt mess consumption ;)Yoplait Greek yogurt, Kashi Mighty Bites, banana, and Creamy Natural Skippy peant butter.Trader Joe's Os! Taste just like Cheerios but more light and air-y.
Enough pics of yogurt messes to bore you with? I think so!Yogurt Mess in a JarYoplait Greek yogurt, Honey Nut Cheerios, banana, and the rest of the pb in a jar. Love me some YMIAJ ;)

Yesterday I went out to lunch with my mom and grammy at a cute lil Irish pub :)For my meal I ordered the Baked Haddock with a side of rice pilaf and a house salad with Italian dressing. This piece of fish was awesome, lightly topped with bread crumbs and was perfectly baked!

I tried this Kashi Frozen dinner meal for the first time, Lemongrass Cocounut Chicken.Chicken with broccoli florets, carrots, sugar snap peas served over whole grains and sesame with red quinoa pilaf topped with a lemongrass coconut sauce and coconut flakes.Let me tell you this meal did not disappoint. Which I should have expected nothing less anyways since pretty much all Kashi products are delish! This meal was very good and will definitely purchase in the future!Chicken Kabobs with rice pilaf and grilled veggies. Delicious melt in my mouth cheeseburger with lettuce and tomatoes in a toasted bun. I must say my mom has been on a grilling kick lately which I don't mind at all because after all it is summertime and time for barbeques!

What a post that was! I am really going to try harder to post more and include more of my eats. Perhaps a post tomorrow? We shall see ;) I seem to be "gung ho" on my breaky meals and not so much on lunch, dinners, or snacks :O So I am hoping to change that as well!

Off to get ready for the day :) Have a great Memorial Day Weekend!

Do you have any fun plans?!

Obsessed With You

2010-05-19T18:54:00.015-04:00

Well hello love pies! It feels great to be posting again!! Hope you all have been fabuloso since I last posted as I have been busy busy since then. This summer I am working as a nanny and I didn't waste anytime starting my job as I started it the day after I got home from college last Thursday!

Where are you workin' this summer?!

So you could pretty much say that I am now obsessed with oats ;) I mentioned it last week but I just wanna show ya how much I am.

I had some Oats in a Jar (OIAJ) which is not like me because since I am the queen of yogurt messes I tend to make yogurt messes in a jar, but not this time!This was just a packet of oats cooked with water in the micro, then mixed with a banana in an almost empty pb jar, and then all shooken up. I must say that is the KEY to good oats in a jar. After you have everything you want in your jar, put the top on and shake it up to get it all mixed up. I swear, give it a try! It will not disappoint.finally took a picture as I was half way into it!Need I tell you how good it was?But it was not a sad morning to let that pb jar go in the recycle bin because I had a brand new jar waiting to be opened the next morning! I am also obsessed with Skippy Natural Creamy pb because it is soo good and creamy. This pb is so creamy and delicious when I eat it by the spoon I need to have a gulp of milk to wash it all down!Peanut Butter & Jelly oats!Maple Sugar & Cinnamon Oats topped wtih banana and Natural Skippy creamy pb with a glass of milk.I have been snackin' on many Kind Bars, as my favorite flavor is the Fruit & Nut Delight.Because I am a Subway kind of girl I have of course already been there since I got home having the usual turkey & swiss cheese on whole wheat with an apple, pretzels, and milk.

Are you a fan of Subway or D'Angelos?!
turkey & cheese panini with pear, pretzels, and milk.Lunch on the go. Can we just look at the ooey gooey cheese melting out? Holy yummm! Also can we look at how I managed to burn this beaut but none the less it was still delish. A lil burnt sandwich never hurt anyone!

Okay so you can also say I am quite obsessed with Panera Bread (as if you couldn't already tell). I know it's a problem and it needs to stop...actually hell no it does not ;) Who am I kidding? This would be the Salmon Mediterranean Salad with a baguette on the side while watching Miss. USA.

Now I know a lot of you are probably asking yourself why I let myself watch Miss. USA this past Sunday night as it could be quite triggering for me as I recover and I understand where you are coming from but let me explain.

Pre-ED I would have no problem watching these shows and pagaents with all the beautiful women flaunting their rockin' bodies as I wish I could be like them but then again I was quite satisfied with my body back then and never had a problem with food or anything! I was happy and healthy and loved my life :)

But now as I recover from an ED I still don't have a problem watching these shows with all the beautful woman. I don't find it all that triggering but I definitely watch the show in a different way as I did pre-ED. I now seet these women as beautiful and healthy. I noticed that NONE of the women competing in Miss.USA were ultra skinny or stick thin. They all carried healthy weight on them and looked great. But most importantly they looked happy in their bodies. It really opened my eyes and showed me that in order to be a beautiful healthy young women you do NOT have to be super skinny.

Now these are just my thoughts and opinions I wanted to share and I know everyone alse has their own! You may agree or disagree with me but that is what I think!

Miss. USA 2010 Rima Fakih from Michigan.

I am really interested on what your thoughts are about Miss. USA. Do you find it triggering to you?! Do you like this pageant or not?!

Now onto more eats... This would be a Rustic Super Veggie Pizza topped with generous amounts of broccoli, mushrooms, peppers, onions, tomatoes, and olives. Can you say holy yum?! I haven't had pizza in so long and it was just what I was craving last Friday night. I had two big slices to fill up my tummy for dinner :) Another dinner was a bowl of elbow pasta with marinara sauce topped with a piece of breaded chicken.

Well that is all I got for ya today on this rainy cold Wednseday. Summer weather is comin' tomorrow and I could not be more excited! Hello 70 and 80 degree weather!

The first day :)

2010-05-13T10:09:00.007-04:00

Well HELLO BLOGGIES! How are you all doing these days? It seems like forever since I last posted...well that's because it was ;) But anyways I am back in action!

Finals are finally ALL over with, which went well, and I am officially on summer vacation! Wahooo :)

So yesterday morning I had my last final and then I packed up and headed on home.
My room went from looking like this...to thisss :(

At the same time I am beyond happy and excited to be on summer break (because I definitely need it!) but I am also sad that school is over. But to look on the bright side I have a nice long 3 1/2 month long summer to enjoy and then it will be time to head back to school and plus I still have 3 more years of college ;)

Note this is just some of what my eats have looked like since I have been very busy lately with studying and all. Now that I am on summer break and will have lots more time I am hoping to be posting LOTS more of my eats! Stay tuned :)

Yogurt Messes in a Jar (YMIAJ). My lil own creation!Vanilla Brown Cow yog, Kashi Go Lean, banana, and the rest of Mighty Mapes pb! and of course more yog messes.
currently addicted to almonds, just sayin'.Typical lunches have been turkey wraps with fruit, apples, and milk. love me some sushi!Bow tie pasta with marinara sauce topped with sliced chicken. 'Twas a delicioso dinner!Last night I went out to dinner with my best friend at Panera Bread and I got the Salmon Meditteranean Salad with bread on the side. Now the first time I had this salad it was just okay but this time around it was much better! It was probably because last time I got it to go, but wo knows. I was so excited to see my bestie as we were able to catch up on each others lives!

This morning I had to get up at the crack of dawn to babysit and get my cousins of to school on the bus. Now of course I would have rather slept in since it was my first night back at home! But let's face it...this girl needs money, so I was up and at 'em!

But to look on the brighter side, my morning breakfast was something to look forward too! Now I know I have said this multiple times before that I was not a big fan of oatmeal. Well I guess I was sort of lying to you guys because I absolutely loved it this morning!
I had a nice bowl of Apples & Cinnamon oatmeal topped with a huge ripe banana and a blob of Natural Skippy peanut butter with a glass of milk on the side :) It was OMG foodgasm in my mouth! Oh and of course with a side of the daily newspaper. I gotta keep up with everything that's going on ;)

I think the previous times when I had oatmeal and didn't like it was because I used plain old oats (like the ones you use for cooking) and they had no flavor whatsoever. They were total BLAH! I didn't know this until after I finished them when my mom told me NOT to use those and to try the Instant Oatmeal packets! Whoops! I had no clue what I was doing. Thank god for my mom ;)

So that is what I used this morning and they were soo good! I can't wait to try the other oatmeal flavors in the future as I can promise you I will be having oatmeal more often ;) And also I was excited to see that my cousin's had a nearly empty pb jar that I can't wait to use for OATS IN A JAR tomorrow morning when I have to babysit again! Hollah!

So I am off to enjoy my first day of summer vaca but then I am headed back over to get the cousins off the bus and babysit some more! I guess you could call me a "nanny" for the summer ;)

What is your favorite flavor oatmeal?!

Ta ta for now my loves! For those of you who are still in school, good luck with finals and for those on you already on vaca, enjoyyy!

Birthday Recap

2010-05-03T14:13:00.010-04:00

Hey! So the last time I posted was last Thursday on my birthday and I just wanna give ya a lil recap ;)I received lots of balloons, flowers, and cards from my family and friends at school. They even tied a balloon to my chair in the dining hall at dinner! Oh how I love them all!Then we celebrated my birthday by going to a lil concert with Matt Nathanson & Justin DeRulo at my school, no biggie. To put it simple, it was amazing! Afterwards, my girls and I went to the bonfire on campus for a bit which was fun! Overall, I had a great 20th Birthday :)

Just a few pics of some of my eats...
Typical yogurt messes with Vanilla Brown Cow yogurt, Kashi Go Lean, banana, and PB & Co. Cinnamon Raisin Swirl peanut butter. A cute smiley breakfast ;) A plain bagel, half with peanut butter and the other half with jam along with a banana.Yoplait Strawberry yog & Kellogg's Granola with raisins.yogurt & granola mess. Holy yum! I am in love with granola now and will defs be using it more and more ;)

The weather this past week has definitely felt not like spring, but summer! The temps have been in the 70's and 80's and I am lovin' it! I love how the weather is so strange, I swear it goes from winter to summer with only a few days that actually feel like spring!
Since the weather has been so HOT lately I have been drinking lots of water for hydration, gatorade for electrolytes, and also adding a lil something extra into my meal plan through out the day. A Banana Strawberry Smoothie that I sometimes get during the day for a cool refreshing drink!

Before I peace out I can't forget to tell you all who won my Justin's giveaway! Drum roll please...and the winner is # 54 Christen! Congrats and please e-mail me ASAP and if I don't hear from you soon I will have to pick a new winner and I am sure you don't want that to happen (or at least I wouldn't). So e-mail me soon to claim those lil packets of pb ;)

Oh yes and I forgot to tell you I went home for a bit this weekend because it was my birthday last week and my cousin's first communion Saturday. So I went home Friday evening and then came back up early Sunday morning because it was Funday Sunday here at my school and I definitely did not want to miss it and I am glad I didn't because it was wicked fun :)

Well I think I am gonna go relax and begin studying for finals that begin this week?! We shall see!

THE BIG 20!

2010-04-28T20:23:00.016-04:00

April 29th is MY BIRTHDAY and today I am turning the BIG 20!

20 years old. Wow! I can't believe it now that I am no longer in my teenager. Where has my life gone?

Let's just say this past year has been a rough one for me with a lot of ups and downs. But in the past year I have also learned a great deal about myself and each day I am becoming a more stronger and happier person. I remember a year ago today on my birthday that I didn't even get to have a piece of cake. What was I thinking? It was the one day out of the year when I am supposed to have fun, indulge, and enjoy myself and I was doing the exact opposite. But needless to say I am not going to let ED rob me of yet another birthday. It is just not gonna happen this year and I am going to make this birthday a great one :)

Is it really spring?!

2010-04-28T19:03:00.009-04:00

Happy Humpday! Can ya believe I am actually posting 3 days in a row this week?! Well I mean it used to be totally normal for me to post daily but these past few weeks I have been posting less frequently!

But anyways, todays weather was so NOT like spring at all and I did not like it one bit! It was cold, rainy, and windy ALL day long :( I just hope the weather clears up fast because tomorrow is my BIRTHDAY! The BIG 20!

Here are some of my eats from the past week or so.I finally opened my jar of PB & Co. Cinnamon Raisin Swirl peanut butter! I have been having this pb for the past few days and I still haven't gotten any raisins, but I can definitely taste the cinnamon flavor. I have heard ya really gotta stir the jar real good because sometimes the raisins go to the bottom. So tomorrow that is what I will do in hopes of getting some of those raisins ;)The usual yogurt messes with Vanilla Brown Cow yogurt, Kashi Go Lean, banana, and Cinnamon Raisin pb.The other day I had a Wet Burrito with a side of rice. This burrito was filled with refried beans and topped with tomato sauce and cheese!I am pretty sure tonight I had one of the best salads at my dining hall EVER! Our salad bar just improved and it know offers a bunch of new salad toppings as well as different types salads!The bottom layer was romaine lettuce then topped with different types of other salads. Starting from the right going clockwise we have thai pasta salad, lil blob of hummus, Apple, Carrot & Raisin salad, potato salad, and 3 bean salad. Holy yum! This salad was BOMB! I loved how I got a little bit of each salad and they were all great but my favorite is definitely the Apple, Carrot & Raisin salad. It was just so different and all the flavors mixed well together! I would never have thought to combine apples, raisins, and carrots together. Would you?!Another face rockin' salad...Caesar salad topped with steak and parmesan cheese with Italian bread and butter.

Broiled chicken with Mushroom & Roasted Garlic Succotash, mashed potatoes, and a roll. Never had succatosh before so I gave it a shot and well it was different but probs not something I would order again!

Also, don't forget to enter my Justin's peanut butter giveaway! I have gotten some very interesting ways of how some of you like to eat peanut butter. I got the usual ways like pb sammies, on toast, in oatmeal, with bananas, in yog messes, and straight outta the jar. But on the other hand I must say I got some other intersting ways like pb on pickles topped with cheddar cheese and pb on oreos!! What what?! Haha.

I hope you had a great Humpday :)

Best friends

2010-04-27T20:06:00.006-04:00

Hey! I hope you are all having a great week so far :) Mine has been going well except for the fact that it was freezing and raining all day :( But at least on the bright side this weekend it supposed to be in the 80's!! Now that is what I am talkin' about.

So I have something that has been on my mind for quite some time and I would like to share it with you! Ever since I got diagnosed with an ED last year, one of my bestest best friends has not been the same best friend I knew before. The whole time while I was in treatment for a month I never heard from her, recieved a card, or even got a visit from her. Now of course I was not expecting her to do any of this for me, but I was hoping she would at least be there for me as I was going through such a difficult time in my life and she wasn't. I was kind of hurt by this but I did not to let it bother me because I was getting so MUCH other support from my family, friends, and my other best friend! I did not want these little things interfere with my recovery so I didn't.

We used to do everything together and when I mean everything, I really mean it. We were always together. I lived at her house and I loved her and her family. We got along so well and laughed and always had a good time :) But I guess some people just don't understand ED and when they know someone who has one they either don't know what to do or they don't want anything to do with them anymore. In my case I think it was a little bit of both. Last summer whenever my other best friend and I called her, she would never want to hang out with us. She was either busy or doing something else. It was almost like she was too good for us now that she was in college and now that I had an ED, it was like she wanted nothing to do with us anymore. I probably saw her once or twice and when I did it was totally awkward, it was like we were never friends before. It is very sad that I lost one of my best friends.

So a few weeks ago I got a random facebook message from her asking me how I was Also, we are no longer fb friends because she de-friended me this past winter, I don't know why, but she did! But anyways, I haven't talked to her in a months and she was never there for me before but all of a sudden she was being nice and asking how I was doing. I still have yet to reply to her message because I honestly don't know what I should do. I mean I really wanna message her back and become friends again like we used to be, but then again why should I. She was never concerned with me when I was going through really tough times, but now she is?!

Did you ever lose a best friend? And if so how did you deal with it?

So now that I have shed a few tears while writing this post, I am going to relax the rest of the night and watch the awesome Tuesday night t.v. line up with The Biggest Loser and the season premieres of The Hills and The City =)

Don't forget to enter my Justin's peanut butter giveaway! You have all the way until next Monday to get those entries in ;)

Justin is callin' YOUR name

2010-04-26T20:00:00.005-04:00

Evenin' love pies!! Did we all have a nice weekend? I have been very busy as the end of the semester winds down!

But I must say I was very studious this past weekend and got lots done. Last Thursday I finished my theology project which isn't even due until tomorrow! Don't let this fool ya, this is so unlike me! Hah. I also finished Eat, Pray, Love and wrote 2 essays! I feel SO much better now that I got that all finished and I don't have to worry about it or stress out because it is all done!

So I have been meaning to do a lil giveaway for you all for sometime now but I just finally got around to doing so! Soooo without further ado...here it is!

JUSTIN'S HONEY PEANUT BUTTER
Yup, ya heard me right. 4 lil packs of honey pb! They are just too cute!They are perfect for on-the-go! So here is what you have to do to enter my giveaway:

all you have to do is leave ONE comment telling me your favorite way to eat peanut butter!

And to increase your chances of winning:

-add http://jennaelise.blogspot.com to your blogroll/google reader

-follow me on twitter

*make sure you leave a SEPERATE COMMENT for each entry*

This giveaway will end one week from today on Monday May 3, 2010 and I will pick 1 lucky winner! So you have one full week to get your entries in!

Monkey Mind

2010-04-20T20:01:00.014-04:00

Hey y'all :) I hope you are all doing FABULOUS since I last posted ;) Fill me in and lemme know what's going on!

Well I will tell you what I have been up to lately. Last Friday I was planning on going home for the weekend but...I decided to stay! I know, so not like me. Hah. Usually when debating whether or not to go home I usually end up going home but not this time! I went out both nights with my girls and had a great time and I was glad I decided to stay! This last week my attitude about college, friends, and going out has TOTALLY changed (for the better!) I just LOVE going out now and having FUN with my friends. I mean that is what college is all about, right? I can't wait for this upcoming weekend and it is only Tuesday!

So you are probably wondering why my post is titled "Monkey Mind" and I will tell you. As I said before for my English class we are reading Eat, Pray, Love which I highly recommend! But anyways while I was reading I came upon this phrase which is a Buddhist term meaning unsettled, restless, capricious, whimsical, fanciful, inconstant, confused, indecisive, and uncontrollable. We talked about monkey minds in class and my teacher said we all have monkey minds and I could definitely relate all of this to my ED! ED sometimes makes me feel like all of these all at the same time! I just need to relax, breathe, and LIVE and not let ED get to me!!

Some foods I have been eating lately...
yogurt messes with Brown Cow Vanilla yogurt, Kashi Go Lean, banana, and PB & Co. Mighty Maple pb.Breakfast on the go! Blueberry muffin, blueberry yog, banana, pb, and milk.Why hello French Meadow Blueberry Muffin! You are quite delish ;)Blueberry yogurt with all of its yummy chemicals!

Lunches have been quit typical of me.
turkey and swiss whole wheat wraps, fruit, pretzels, and milk.Grilled Chicken caesar salad and a baked potato with melted cheesy goodness on top.Hot grilled veggie wrap with american melted cheese! Yummm.Spring rolls and rice topped with veggies.Dinners have been...broiled chicken, mixed veggies, herb risotto, and potato, thyme & olive oil gratin which was beyond good. Never had it before!

Baked ham with asparagus, scalloped potatoes, and a roll.

Well that has been some of my eats as of this past week. I have been MUY busy with school work as well as my social life.

I am very sad there are only a few more weeks of school but I am also so very excited and ready for summer!!

Are you ready for summer to begin?!

Did ya miss me?

2010-04-12T15:00:00.033-04:00

HEY!! Alright, so first of all I am ALIVE! I went on a much needed blog hiatus and it was just what I needed ;) As I have mentioned before I was feeling obligated to post everyday and I thought if I didn't post I would be letting myself down and all of you! I would be a failure if I didn't post or something bad might happen. But I think A LOT of that had to do with my ED! I think ED was the one telling me to post everyday and not me. So last Thursday was when I decided I was NOT going to post! It was a CHANGE and I realized nothing bad happened as a result! I felt good I didn't cave into ED!

But I must tell you my lil vacation from blogging was great. I mean I totally did miss it, but it was such a nice break to just LIVE and not worry about blogging each and every single day! Plus, I was really busy with school work this past week so I really didn't have time to post and why put more pressure on myself to post when I do NOT have the time?! That just does not make any sense. School work is definitely more important than blogging each day!

But now that I finally have the time to post, I WANT to post, and I don't feel obligated...I am POSTING :) It should be something I like to do whenever I want and I should NEVER feel obligated!

So I will share with you some of my eats lately. I didn't go so to say "gung ho" on my picture taking this past week. If I wanted to snap a pic, I would. But if not, then I didn't! Simple as that :)

Breakfast meals have looked a lot like this...
yog mess in a DCD jarI mean it was alright ;) But it was a sad morning when I said good-bye to this beauty. We sent some good breakfast moments together! But now I get to open up a new jar...CINNAMON RAISIN SWIRL :)Kashi Mighty Bites and Mighty Maplemixed up...only the best way to go!Kashi Go Lean and DCDOne of the best breakys I had this past week!Yup that would be a PB & J plus banana sandwich!!Fruit & Nut Delight Kind barI also tried out this new Naked juice...Peach Guava Smoothie w/ coconut water! I have been drinking these throughout the day instead of always water. They are quite good!

Lunches have been quite similiar to this...turkey wrap, pretzels, apple, and milkWith this lunch I had some apple sauce!Aka great dippage for pretzels...as well as on top of my turkey wrap! Call me weird but they were both quite tasty ;)more turkey (tomato) wraps

veggie burgers

I must admit have a new addiction to HUMMUS!
These have been perfect for an on-the-go snack! Super convenient and obviously delish :)

One of the best dinners I had was this...
Pasta with arugula, white beans, and walnuts in some kind of yummy sauce with Italian bread with buttah and chocolate milk. Very satisfying but filling meal!I have been consuming many Creamy Chocolate milkshakes as an evening snack. Of course chilled in the freezer for a few hours to make it cold and slushy!I have been sippin' on hot tea lately as well.And I have been tackling my TO DO List! I was a very busy girl last week which was a result of me not having a lot of time to blog. I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE when professors pile on tons of work in the last few weeks of the semester!

Do your professors do that as well?!

I must also tell you for my English class this semester I am reading Eat, Pray, Love and it is so so good, I legit can't put it down!

Well I posted today because I WANTED TO and not because I felt obligated! I also definitely missed it! But I do not feel obligated to post each day and that has been a great feeling :)

Have a great Thursday night!!

Because I care

2010-04-07T19:05:00.006-04:00

Okay so I must tell you that I have the best friends at college!

Last night when I got back to my room these beautiful Easter lilies were waiting outside my door for me and had no idea who they were from.
The flowers and card were from my girl Carly who came to visit but I missed her :( Like seriously she did not have to do this for me but she did because she is amazing! And plus, it is her birthday today! I should be the one giving her flowers and gifts and not the other way around. So Carly if you are reading this, thanks so much! You MADE my night :) Breakfast this morning was the usual yogurt mess with Brown Cow Vanilla yogurt, 1 cup Kashi Honey Sunshine, sliced banana, and PB & Co. Mighty Maple with a glass of milk.Morning snack was a Butter Pecan Boost with an Almond & Apricot Kind Bar. Kind of a weird mix of the flavors, but hey!Lunch was a veggie burger with swiss cheese on wheat bread with pretzels, an apple, and milk. Then I had my weekly appointment which went well I guess. She doesn't tell me if I gained, stayed the same, or lost but I guess that is a good thing!Before I left for Girls Inc. this afternoon I had this Chocolate Chip Clif Bar. Funny story today, one of the girls remembered I told her I would bring her candy today from last week when they came to eat dinner with us. I totally didn't think she would remember but she did, of course! I kinda felt bad that I told her that last week but I definitely didn't think she would remember. But I mean she got her fair share of candy when she came to dinner with me so it's all good! But I learned my lesson today, not to promise them anything because they WILL remember. I should have known since I have soo many lil cousins ;)
Another reason why I have the best friends is when I got back from Girls Inc. my girls already ate dinner but my roomie for next year came down to eat with me so I wouldn't have to bring it back to my room! For dinner I had grilled chicken, mashed potaotes, zesty broccoli, a dinner roll, and milk.

So I am just really grateful for my friends I have her at college and I love them soo much :)

Gotta hop in the shower, get some work done, and watch the Red Sox ;)

What day is it?!

2010-04-06T19:50:00.004-04:00

Ok so all through today I kept thinking it was Monday when acutally it is Tuesday since we didn't have school yesterday! But I mean I guess that is a good thing, right? It is better I wasn't thinking it was Wednesday already.

Does this ever happen to you?!

But anyways, know that I know today is Tuesday here are my eats. Pretty typical eats and not anything all that exciting. But I advice you to read along anyways :)
Breakfast was return of the MIGHTY MAPLE peanut butter! In my yogurt mess with Vanilla Brown Cow yogurt, Kashi Honey Sunshine, a banana, and PB & Co. Mighty Maple pb on top with a glass of milk.In between my morning classes I had a Vanilla Boost and a Fruit & Nut Kind Bar.Lunch today was a turkey & swiss wrap, pretzels, a pear, and milk. Afternoon snackage was an Apricot Clif Bar.Dinner tonight was chicken with glazed tri-colored carrots, lemon parsley potatoes, a Harvest Oat dinner roll and milk. I absolutely love love love these carrots, they are soo good! The potatoes were different because they were made with lemon which gave them a nice taste to them as I have never had lemon parsley potatoes before.

So there ya have it, my typical Tuesday eats. Now I am off to watch The Biggest Loser and then 16 & Pregant and also work on my theology project that got assigned to me today. This is so not like me, hah! But I am actually pretty excited about this project because we have to make a scrap book so it is a fun crafty project and not a boring essay. Also, I want to get a head start on it and not wait to the last minute because I know the rest of the semester is going to be quit busy.

Is is weird I am excited about a project?! I will answer YES to that question!

And lastly I would like to thank each and every one of you who commented on my post last night. I am glad to know I am not the only one and that a lot of you experienced the same things as me!

The fear of CHANGE

2010-04-05T20:20:00.005-04:00

Hey hey hey! I am currently blogging from school and I just got back this afternoon.

I had a great break but I am also glad to be back at school. I can't believe I only have ONE month left of school for the semester and then it's summertime! Whooo.

So last Thursday as you know I met with my new therapist for the first time who I really enjoyed! We talked for the whole hour and I really felt like I could tell her everything and she totally understood exactly what I was talking about!

So anyways I mentioned to her that through middle school and into my high school years I suffered from OCD. Although I was not medically diagnosed with it I definitely had the signs and symptoms, there was no doubt. In those years I was very obsessed with doing things over, over, and over again. I would touch something a certain number of times until I was able to walk away from it. I always felt if I touched something wrong or changed somehing then something bad was going to happen. I was not good with change :/ It was VERY bad and it took up a lot of my time doing un-neccesary behaviors.

As I went through high school these obsessive behaviors faded away and I became not so obsessed. I was just so sick of doing them that I just stopped it! I no longer needed to do these obsessive behaviors or rituals anymore and It felt like such a relief once I finally stopped doing them.

Now doesn't this OCD remind you of an ED?! Of course it does! I never even thought of it until my therapist mentioned it to me! I became so fed up with my OCD that I just stopped doing it and now as I am recovering in ED, why can't I just do the same thing as I did with my OCD...just stop?! If I could stop doing these OCD behaviors then I should be able to stop my ED, right?!

So this past weekend I challenged myself not with food but with changing things in my life. I did this because I hate change and I always feel like something bad will happen and this connects to my ED! I feel if I eat food something bad will happen like I will become fat (which is NOT true). So I did some cleaning sround my room and threw away things I don't need or want anymore in my room. At first I was hesitant in throwing them away because I feared something bad was going to happen. But alas, I just took the stuff and threw it out and took a deep breath. I was proud of myself for doing this and knowing that nothing bad will happen just because I threw something away and changed it!

Sorry for this whole long rant. You all probably think I am a majorrr head case but oh well! I just needed to express my thoughts and there is no better place than MY blog!

Onto my day... Breakfast was a yog mess with Yoplait greek yogurt, 1 cup Kashi Mighty Bites, sliced banana, and some PB & Co. DCD peanut butter with a glass of milk on the side.Love the beautiful natural sunlight! It really does make a difference in the pics.This morning I packed up all my stuff which took no time at all, relaxed a bit, and then had a snack. I had a package of Planter's NUT-rition Heart Healthy Mix. My mom gave this to me in my Valentine's basket but she bought the wrong one and never ended up returning. Since they were still in my cabinet I decided to give them a try. It was a mix of peanuts, almonds, pecans, pistachios, hazelnuts, and walnuts. I thought it was alright but I am not a big fan of pistachios. My fav mix is by far the South Beach Diet Mix with just almonds, cashews, and macadamia nuts.Before I headed back up to school I ate some lunch. I had chicken, american cheese, and apple slices on 12 Grain bread paninied, pretzels, the rest of the apple, and a glass of milk.

Ok so I thought this was so random but the other day on my Formspring someone asked why I always drink my milk out of a plastic cup instead of a glass cup because they said it really makes a difference! But to me, milk tastes the same in a plastic cup or glass!

Once I got back to school I un-packed, cleaned my room, changed my sheets, and CHANGED some stuff etc. ya know the typical stuff ya do when returning back from break.
Later on I went to dinner with the girls and the dining hall was a ghost town! There was legit no body in there and not even all of the lights were on. I think I have officially found my favorite meal at my college dining hall...Wheat pasta with Asparagus & Almonds topped with white chicken!! This was my second time having this meal and I absolutely love it. Although it is supposed to be farfalle pasta tonight it was rotini and also had onions in it to spice it up! On the side I had a piece of wheat bread with butter and a glass of milk.

Whew, that seemed like a long post! Congrats if ya read all of that. I am now off to watch the rest of the RED SOX game and catch up on some blogs :)

What is/was your favorite meal in college?!

Happy Easter!

2010-04-04T20:48:00.004-04:00

Happy Easter! I hope you all had a great day :)

Now, I was debating on whether or not to post today just because I kind of wanted a break and plus it was Easter today! I went back and forth, back and forth and of course I obviously caved in and decided to post. If I didn't post tonight it would have been the first time since I started my blog that I didn't post. I just feel like I am obligated to post even if I don't have much to say or don't have the time to :/

But anyways I will give ya a quick recap of my Easter Day :)This morning I was greeted by an Easter Basket! I got a sweatshirt and yoga pants from Victoria's Secret, a gas gift card, iTunes gift card, and some candy! Thanks Easter Bunny ;)Even though we were going out to brunch today I still needed to have a solid breakfast so I had the usual yog mess with Yoplait Greek yogurt, Kashi Heart to Heart, sliced banana, and PB & Co. DCD peanut butter with a glass of milk.

Later this morning I baked some Easter cupcakes and then got ready. I also had my morning snack of a Vanilla Boost and a package of mixed nuts.At noon my family and I were of to meet my aunt and cousins at the country club for some brunch. I am not going to lie I was a bit nervous going out for brunch but there really was no need to because it was BRUNCH! I have been to brunches before and have had no problem. But this was my first time going since my ED. The brunch was excellent! I felt very comfortable because I was able to see all of the food being served and was able to choose what I wanted to eat! Since I already had breakfast food I wasn't really craving it again so I went for the lunch foods. I got a piece of salmon topped with pineapples, sweet mashed potatoes, brown rice, and some veggies. The potatoes were the best so I went up for some seconds and also got a bowl of fruit salad.

The brunch was really nice and I had a great time and there was really no need to be nervous for the brunch! After, my family and I headed over to my mom's side of the family for the annual Easter Egg Hunt!! I love hiding all the eggs for the lil cousins :)

My Easter was very fun and I enjoyed spending the day with my family and the beautiful weather just made it even better!

How was your Easter Day?!

Get some!

2010-04-03T21:20:00.009-04:00

Hey blog readers! Hope you all had a beautiful day :)

The weather here was soo nice and I enjoyed every single minute of it today!
Today I was up rather early because I had to bring my lil sis to her basketball tourney! Before we left I scarfed down my yog mess of Vanilla Brown Cow yogurt, Kashi Mighty Bites, sliced banana, and PB & Co. DCD peanut butter with a glass of milk. Sorry for the rather dark pic but I was in a rush to get out the door!My sisters team did well and they won, she got 7 points ;) Yeah! Later in the morning I had my snack of a Butter Pecan Boost and a Fruit & Nut Delight Kind Bar.Lunch was of course eaten outside to enjoy the beautiful weather! I had a turkey, apple, and american cheese hot panini on 12 Grain bread with pretzels, an apple, and milk. 'Twas a much enjoyable lunch outside :)Snack this afternoon was a new bar to me that definitely lived up to its name...SWEET and SALTY! This was the Mountain Mix Clif Mojo Sweet and Salty Trail Mix bar. My first bite in to the bar was something I was definitely not expecting. I was expecting this bar to be more like the traditional trail mix bar but that was not the case! The Mountain Mix bar was both sweet and salty filled with nuts, pretzels, raisins, chocolate chips, peanuts, and almonds! I really ejoyes this bar so I bought another one today. Hah.The people workin' over at Clif are so amazing. I love on the back of the wrapper they end but saying "CLIF mojo. Get some" I just think that is rather funny! But I must agree with them...so go and GET SOME ;)My sis had another bball game tonight so after we got dinner to go and I went to no other place but Panera Bread and ordered something new. I had the Mediterranean Salmon Salad! The salad had a piece of salmon served on a bed of greens with Kalamata olives, feta cheese, mandarin oranges, sliced almonds, and red onions tossed in a Honey Tangerine vinaigrette dressing. I was rather excited to try this salad since I heard some great reviews on it but it kind of disappointed me. Which is surprising because I am a big fan of Panera. But oh well, ya can't win them all! Along with the salad I had a baguette and a glass of milk.

I am now relaxing with my sisters so good night y'all!

Have a Happy Easter :)

What are your plans for tomorrow!?

Good Friday!

2010-04-02T18:51:00.007-04:00

Happy GOOD FRIDAY! Hope it was a good one for you all :)

Now a lot of you commented on my post yesterday on how I cooked my eggs in the microwave! I was surprised because very few have ever heard of it. So I will tell ya how I made them ;) I whisked two whole eggs and a lil bit of milk together (probs 2 tbs?!) and then into the microwave they went for a minute and then whisked again. Then back in they went for another minute or so. You should notice the eggs start to get puffy and fluff up, just before they are almost done (when there is still some egg mixture on top) place your slice of cheese on top and let it cook for another 30 more seconds to let the cheese sink in. There ya have it, how to cook eggs in the microwave :) Aka...only the BEST way!So go try it and lemme know what you think.
This morning for breaky I had the typical yog mess with Vanilla Brown Cow yogurt,1 cup Kashi Mighty Bites and a sliced banana topped with PB & Co. DCD peanut butter with a glass of milk.All mixed uppp!This is what the Mighty Bites cereal looks like, I told you they were shaped as lil people!My mom let my lil sis stay home from school today since she was "sick!" Haha. So her and I chilled for the morning, aka watched tv and snuggled ;) Later in the morning I had a Vanilla Boost and a Nut Delight Kind Bar.Lunch today I was re-united with my panini maker! It just makes lunch that much better. I had a veggie burger with american cheese paninied on 12 Grain bread with a juicy pear and pretzels along with a glass of milk.

My mom and I did some errands around town and while we were out she suggested I get my hair done since I was home for break and plus it was much needed. So I called the salon and actually was able to get an appointment for an hour later! Hollah. So off I was to get my hair colored and cut! I am pretty sure the best feeling is when you leave the salon and your hair is perfect. I just wish it could just stay like that forever...but we all know it unfortunately doesn't. Boo!
While getting my hair done I munched on this new to me Cookie Dough Balance Bar. This flavor rocked my faceee! It tasted just like raw cookie dough. The bar had real cookie pieces that were wrapped in a milk chocolate flavored coating. It tasted just like a candy bar ;) If ya love raw cookie dough then this bar is for ya. But if it is not your thing, well I still think you should try it out anyways. Dinns tonight was another home cooked meal by mom. I had some white Perdue chicken, broccoli, baked potato, and a piece of bread with a glass of milk. Pretty simple lookin' dinner but it hit the spot!

Well blog readers, I am off to do who knows what! But I do know later I will be watching Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution!

If you have watched his new show, what are your thoughts/opinions ?!

Egg-cellent

2010-04-01T19:25:00.004-04:00

Happy April 1st! Can you believe it is already April?! Whew! I feel like I was just writing my first post of March like it was yesterday. But boy am I excited for this month because well the nice weather is coming, it is spring which means closer to summer, but most importantly because of my BIRTHDAY! I will be the big 2-0 at the end of this month! Whoahhh :)

Now onto my Thursday eats...
Last night I got a great nights sleep in my bed! This morning for breakfast I had a yogurt mess in my beloved Anthropologie bowl with Vanilla Brown Cow yogurt, 1 cup of Kashi Mighty Bites, sliced banana, and a good ol' dollop of PB & Co. DCD peanut butter with milk on the side.It is NOT a yogurt mess until it is all mixed up ;)Last night at the store I picked up some new cereal, Kashi Mighty Bites! This cereal has a cool shape to it, they are actually little people, kinda cute ;) The cereal was good and it had a touch of honey crunch. However, I think I still like Honey Sunshine better ;) My morning snack was a Vanilla Boost and a Fruit & Nut Delight Kind Bar. Then my mom and I were off to the mall to do some shopping :) A great way to start my first day of Easter Break! I must say we did good.

Then we had to come home because I had a therapist appointment with actually a new therapist! This therapist is extremely good that it takes a long time to get an appointment with her, so once I finally did I was more than happy :) I really think she IS the one!!
After my appointment I grabbed a realll late lunch from Subway with my gift card from Christmas. Santa really knows me all too well ;) I had a six inch turkey on 9-Grain wheat bread with swiss cheese, lettuce, and tomatoes along with Southwestern Ranch Baked Lays, and a jug of milk. Then I went to my sister's high school lacrosse game. It was the first of the season but they lost!

On the car ride home after the game I snacked on a Oatmeal Raisin Walnut Clif Bar that I left in my car! It was a good thing because I forgot a snack since I thought I was going home before the game. But now I store emergency snacks in my car for times like these! So there was no need to worry.

Dinner tonight was egg-cellent since I was just craving eggs for some reason. I guess it is just because I haven't had them in awhile so tonight I re-united myself with them. I had two whole eggs cooked in the microwave (only the BEST way!) topped with a piece of american cheese, an english muffin with peanut butter (NOT measured!), a juicy pear, and a glass of milk. Sometimes having breakfast for dinner is just the way to go!Tonight for a snack I am gonna have a milkshakeee! Not chocolate but cookies 'n cream!Oh yess and I forgot to mention last night I bought some more peanut butter, I really need to stop! Hah. I got PB & Co. Cinnamon Raisin Swirl! I am not gonna open it until I finish another jar. I just don't like having too many jars open at once, ya know?! But I can't wait to try this beauty out!

How was your April Fools Day?!

Easter Break

2010-03-31T19:00:00.008-04:00

Hey lovies! Thanks for all of you who checked out my Formspring and asked me some questions! If you haven't checked it out then go ahead :)

Well I am home...again and this time for Easter Break for six days! Ohh the perks of going to a Catholic college ;) I am gonna do a quickie post for y'all because I wanna chill out with the fam for the night.
Breaky featured a yog mess with Vanilla Brown Cow yogurt, 1 cup Kashi Honey Sunshine, sliced banana, and PB & Co. Mighty Maple peanut butter with milk on the side.
AM snack was a Strawberry Banana Naked Juice Smoothie and a Trail Mix TLC Kashi bar.Lunch was a veggie burger w/ swiss cheese on whole wheat bread, pretzels, a pear, and milk.

After lunch I had my weekly appointment and then headed HOME!! On the car ride home I snacked on a Chocolate Chip Clif Bar.

Dinner tonight was my mom's homemade lasagna, half meat and half plain for my non-meat eating sisters. I had a nice sized piece of the meat side with a piece of Italian bread and a glass of milk. What a great dinner it was and I am glad to be back home :)

Well I am off to the grocery store to pick up some essentials while home for the next week! See ya on the flip side ;)

What is your favorite homemade meal?!

Ask away!

2010-03-30T19:31:00.004-04:00

Hey lovies! I just wanna do a quickie post for y'all!

Just got a pic from breaky from today, nothing special but certaintly delish ;) I have been pretty busy today with classes, getting ready to go HOME tomorrow for Easter Break, and Housing Lottery! I am so glad housing lottery is over with. I am really happy because me any my roomie got the dorm we wanted and we are with all of our girlfriends! Can't wait for next year, it is going to be wicked fun!

Breaky was the typical yog mess with Vanilla Brown Cow yogurt, 1 cup Kashi Go Lean, sliced banana, and Pb & Co. DCD peanut butter with milk on the side. So I finally caved in and got myself a formspring! I never thought I would but of course I did. So if ya wanna ask me any questions...ask away!

Gotta go shower and get ready for The Biggest Loser, American Idol, and Teen Mom! Love Tuesday tv nights :)

What is your favorite out of these shows?!